sorry i didn't notice your friend request until just now... i live in a haze I think.. days just seem to stream by with little meaning ... partly my age I guess and largely because I don't want to think too hard about what I've lost and what I might lose next... terrifying .. so I just plod along most days... I'm so sad for you.. losing my husband would totally destroy me.. I know that .. and I just don't know why God didn't make it so we could all go together to heaven instead of taking one of us and leaving the other behind all alone... its the worst kind of lonely... I miss my son so much... every day.. always thinking ..'if only I had...' and things like that that make no difference not... please always talk to us... this is the only place I have to go to where I say what I am really feeling... other places just make me want to scream with their heartless attitude of 'get on with it' or 'stop whining' and such horrible hateful comments....

Dear Maureen!

Thank you so much for your kind answer!I´m very sorry for your loss,too!I know how unbearable pain it is.There´re no words to say how much it hurts.

Hug you from the heart!

Janka

Maureen, so sorry about your loss. I guess that's what this site is all about. Each of us has had a loss and we share the grief and pain of that loss. If I'm not being too personal, how did your husband die? In the picture he seems pretty hale and hearty.