i am mad me for bean mad god 

i am so mad at god for stuff he has put us thru  if i sea him or her im worid in i say horble stuff 2 him or her im worid i will puch or slap him or her 

i bleve in god im so mad at god i am i am so mad at him or her

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so not fair

evry  1s loss is so not fairr its not

i get sic of sean bad news on tv bad pesosns getaway wth killing peple i do

our loved 1s nevr hrt any 1 we loze thm

i feal so meset up coz of death i do

i feal lk a big car/bus/train/crash i do

i cry lk rain i hte wen sun blnds us

if thy new humn lfe cud be so shit thy wud not enjy it

yea i feal bad abot slapin god i do but he/she has tk so mush loved 1s of me us evry he/she haz

i dnt sin or try not 2 yea i medite if i can its hrd 2 thng of grt thngs or days on days loved 1s died

yea but it feals lk it

i dnt mean 2 b but 2 days 1 of thm days a loved 1 died on i no its way we all feal day die it mks us so mad

i feal lk im lockt up in grief i do it feals lk i can not escpe i cnt i dont thng i will ever get away coz of grief 

i h a tttttt e pain it leavs us 

i get sic of bean told it gets easy im lk hng its f@@@@@@@@kin bull sh@t it dont get easy pain seams 2 get 2 big

i fealk lk god him or her is lockng us up in grief i dnt no ifts me or coz of multi loss i dont no

yea iv hrd u can fix broken arms legs but ita hrd 2 fix us its 2 broken herted i mnt hearded bloody arm agan

i try 2

thnx zell wen i fnd thm on tht imge site im lk yea its way i feal not only me a lot of us on hear feal it 2

it feals lk me its not 1 of my drawngs its not i got off imge sit i did

2 mush we r

i do it a lot but u can tell im not coz im wrst lier ever 

If there is a god, then I wouldn't need to be angry at it, if it had set things up so that we each know, beyond any shadow of a doubt, that our loved ones still exist after death. Oh, and while it was at it, how about setting things up so that good, innocent people don't die horribly and/or too young?  Now a god that did THAT would be one I could respect.  As it is now, if there is a god, then it deserves my hatred, and I really don't care if it loves me or if it can "take" my anger, or anything else about it.  God, if there is one, screwed up, and is either unwilling or unable to fix what it screwed up. If unwilling, then the hatred is deserved. If unable, then maybe the hatred isn't deserved, but neither is any respect or honor on my part.  I know you don't share this view, Zell, but it's how I feel.

i agrea blue 2 mush death in yng i do

if i did meat him/her i cud grab scream why i thng i end up slaping him/her coz of loss kids sufferng or die 2 yng big c as well on hear i can get my anger on hear coz i no im not on my orn on hear 

u can sea mums dads on hear so broken coz of kids death so not fair u sea loved 1s loss partners u do so not fair

I hear you loud and clear. The thing that keeps me wondering is who or what to thank when or if anything good ever happened. I know I didn't make me or anyone else, so who made who? Choice never came into it as far as who we are, where we are born, when, or what we look like, as far as I can comprehend. Random madness can't quite answer it for me either because I know good things have happened to me. Grief is not a choice I would have made knowing all scenarios before hand. But clearly this is the way it is, again what choice did we really have?

I don't know maybe I'm just a figment of my own imagination and none of this is really happening to anyone, that makes a lot more sense, there, now if I can just slip back into this straight jacket.

me 2 quinceyjr

i sm tms thng i shud wear 1 for my own safty ir if i meat god his/hers safty in case i grab slap or say a lot of bad stuff 2 him her or swear at him or her 

Quincyjr,

Before my husband died, I was agnostic. I thought of myself as a "hopeful agnostic", in that I hoped there was a loving, sentient god. Even though I didn't know if there was a god or not, whenever something good happened in my life, I offered thanks to god, in case there was one. I was grateful for the good things in my life, especially my family and my husband (well, boyfriend and then fiancé, and then husband).

I am still very grateful for my family and my husband, but not towards "god", as I very much doubt there is such a being.

As far as how we were made -- could be that there's a god/being who created us, or could be random chance and we just happen to exist in the one circumstance in a billion that allowed for human life.  I really don't know which it is.

zel my anger or bean mad i can scream it on hear coz i no im not on my own im honset abot it 

i dont no if old me or i will ever sea her agin in mirror i thng her broken as killed us insde it has 

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