I am not proud, but I am facing the honest truth that I am the other woman.  The pain in losing my best friend and man I love after 12 years to a heart attack is excruciating. How have you grieved, when your sorrow doesn't make sense to any one else?  I do not want my desire to feel comforted be at the expense of hurting anyone else or his reputation by my disclosure of what a close and precious relationship we shared.  I ask to not be judged, though I realize I would deserve it.  I truly want to heal and overcome this heavy sense of sorrow.  I know he would want me happy, I just don't know how to do it without him.

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Ps... Everyone's words here are so exactly the same as my feelings. I hope we can be a comfort to each other.

Oh, Suzy.  I understand.  Believe me, I do.  It was 7 months yesterday since I lost my guy and it is still devastatingly difficult.  Your thoughts were my thoughts 7 months ago.  Will have to finish some other time.  But God bless you for your kind words and God bless you in your grief.

Thank you so very much. You don't know how much that means to me. I am here to share with whenever you want. I need you all too. I'm amazed there are others in this same situation. It helps so much.

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