Lynn, thank you for your kind words, am sorry it took me a few days to reply. I am feeling very overwhelmed by emotions right now and can barely put my thoughts together. it has been three weeks since she died and yet it feels like it was just today, very raw and I feel half crazed. One moment crying, the next raging, the next numb and empty. I hope I can get through this time without cracking completely.

Thanks Lynn...I had not seen my son for 10 days when he died, and his cell phone had been broken for 2 weeks. I do know that the last time I saw him, I held his face in my hands and looked in his eyes and told him how dearly I loved him. Neither of us knew it would be the last time we spoke. It was such an ordinary moment, but that final kiss will have to last me the rest of my life. I pray that you all have found peace, I know I will be searching for it..

Hi Lynn

Thanks for sharing your story -So sorry to hear about your loss. I am just 2 weeks deep in my grief and sadness, and it seems like the pain is too much to endure.  Any words of advice? I'm so glad I joined this group as I think it will greatly help me relate to others and follow some of their advice.  Thanks again - Gale

Hi Lynn

Thank you for your comment and words of support.  I am sorry for the loss of your daughter.  My son's 22nd birthday is August 13th and I'm dreading that day.  I guess I am still in shock over this.  Abel did not live with me so I don't have the every day reminders and find myself thinking that he is at home or work.  He spent a lot of time with my daughter and her BF so the last time they came over I expected Abe to walk in behind them and when he didn't I felt that heartbreak.  I'm just taking it day by day and trying to move on without him.  Some days are better than others.  I have 3 daughters and 2 granddaughters(2 of my girls and the Grandkids live with me) and I am trying to be strong for them.  The Grandkids keep me going most of all because they are young and so full of life and energy.  It helps to wake up to their beautiful smiles every morning.  I still have flashes from the hospital and the funeral that come through my mind and I find myself reliving those moments.  I just still cant believe this has happened.   I hope talking about it with others who have been there can help.  Thank you again for reaching out.  Hugs, Cyndii

Thank you. Right now the turning to call her, or the random thought that she is going to walk through my door are the thoughts that still surprise me. Which brings the heartache anew...

Thank you

Hi Lynn, Thank you for that, it is so heartbreaking, I am so sorry for the loss of you daughter, I was so stunned when I found our son, life has so many surprises. I just hope he knew how much he was loved, Namaste.

Thanks Lyn for your kind message and friend request. Interesting that we are on such similar paths. Peace to you. Brightest blessings, Erica

Hi Lyn, you can contact m at jinta6c@yahoo.com

Thanks sooooooooooooo much.

I'm so sorry you had to lose your daughter ... nothing worse has EVER happened to me than losing my son so suddenly and without warning... the bottom still drops out of my stomach every time I think about it, or write about it... but what can we do?  We have NO choice and that's probably part of the problem... we just have to TAKE it.... LIVE with it... in here we all can say how we feel... when we're devastated, or full of fear, or furious, or just empty and desolate... we can say it here... I can't say it anywhere else... so please never think you have to pretend in here... none of us have the strength to pretend everywhere.... hugs

Lynn, Thanks and  I cherish the friendships here. thank you for your message. In the midst of this mind numbing pain all I can say is that I am here anytime you want to talk about anything. Love and take care.