I am writing just to let everyone know that I am still out there. I have been having a very bad time of it lately, today being the worse day since she passed. I don't really feel like talking at this time as all I have been doing is sobbing and I have finally stopped and don't want to start again. Love to all.

Bonnie, just checking in with you again. Haven't seen you here for awhile and have been thinking about you. I'm sending you love and prayers.

Bonnie, 

we haven't seen you for a while on here .. so do share-- we are with you-- god will give u all the strength required and our prayers are with you.I am thinking of you. Do be in touch and let us know how u r doing..love, hugsss.

Bonnie, your comment about being a lot stronger while she was dying than you are now is normal.  I felt the same way standing by my dying daughter the months that she was living, but now after she is gone, I feel like I am falling to pieces.  This morning at 3 a.m. laying in my bed I had a total "meltdown" and cried for over an hour.  I know it is post traumatic syndrome that has happened as in any crucial situation where our adrenal keeps us going and we are strong when wehave to be and, now, that is has happened we have time to really relive all of it.  Just know my dear that you are not alone in your feelings and we will get through by the "grace of God" and sweet support friends as I see here.  I am new on the site.  God Bless and know I am your friend and am going through the same feelings and pain as you are.

Hello Bonnie, 

Just here to let you know I am thinking of you and keeping you in prayer.  Hugs.

Morning Bonnie,

Please read the emails I have sent you  - I hope you find the information helpful. And I hope today is better than yesterday.

(Philippians 4:6, 7) Do not be anxious over anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication along with thanksgiving let YOUR petitions be made known to God;  and the peace of God that excels all thought will guard YOUR hearts and YOUR mental powers by means of Christ Jesus.

Brenda

Bonnie, I am so sorry, and I feel your pain, you are in my prayers.....Patricia

Hello Bonnie, I just wanted to leave a quick note to let you know that I am thinking of you.  I understand where you are in this first week and my heart aches for you.  I hope you are taking care of yourself as best you can.  

Love & hugs.  ❤

Hello Bonnie, I just read your message and I know you are dealing with raw emotions.  This wound is like no other and I wish their was a remedy, but there isn't.  It's a moment by moment, hour by hour, & day by day thing.  You mentioned Mother's Day and how hard it's going to be.  I agree, it will be hard, just as every holiday, birthday, and anniversary.  The first ones are scary.  I would tell you to try not to think of it if it's possible, but that probably won't happen.  Just know that whatever you are going through is normal.  We've all been there and we are still here.  Please take care of yourself in whatever way you can.

I hope you have family & friends close to you right now.  We are here for each other, but sadly, we can't be together.  Many have said that going to meetings has helped them.  You may want to look and see what is in your area.  I've heard a lot of good things about Compassionate Friends.  I don't have one close to me or I would have gone.  Just something to think about.

Sending hugs and blessings your way.

Bonnie, I'm praying for you and your family.

Bonnie, sorry is not even acceptable right now, but my heart is aching for you.  I am keeping you and your family in my prayers.  I wish it could be more.  

Right now you need to do whatever it is that will give you strength.  Please take care of yourself.  ❤

Bonnie I can not get you off my mind.  It is such a sad thing you are facing, I sure hope you have people around you who are able to hold you up.  My prayers are with you and your family now more than ever.  Hugs from me to you.

Sara is in the Hospice facility and the vent was removed early but she still lingers on.  Her heart is strong and she is young and this could go on and on.  He dad is staying the night and we can be ready at the drop of a hat to go back.  They are giving her meds, including Morphine, to make her comfortable and out of pain.  My son and I will go back in the morning and we need as many prayers as we can get.  I can't believe this is happening.

Bonnie, I am so sorry about your daughter. I'm just letting you know that I care and I will definitely be praying for you and your family. If you ever need someone to talk to I'll always be willing to do that.