i JUST WENT TO BED WITH A PICUTRE OF MY HUSBAND AND HELD HIM ALL NIGHT. AND WOKE UP WITH HIM IN THE MORNING. i WAS ABLE TO FEEL HIM RIGHT THERE WITH ME. SHE IS THERE WITH YOU. lISTEN FOR HER. FEEL HER. SHE IS YOUR STRENGTH EVEN NOW.

This is great Diana.  I am doing something similar.  It has helped a lot.

Dear Diana
I saw your post and just wanted to come by and give you some words of love and comfort
I lost my youngest son Jacob to Leukaemia ( AML after a 20 month battle)
so I understand how tired and sad you are feeling ...after you have helped nurse someone that Ill it takes it's toll of you both physically and mentally you need to give yourself time to heal as well
It took me a good 12 months to not be as tired all the time
I know with me It is a daily struggle I miss my Jacob so much my heart aches all the time
but there are better days head for you
love Jacob's mum "Leukaemia Sux www.caringbridge.org/me/jacob

I feel the pain with you. I lost my mom 6 years ago to cancer. I finally find the man of my dreams at 38 and lose him five years later to sarcoma cancer. Its been 4 weeks now...I have to make myself get out of bed and go to work. I have to remind myself to stop crying and breath.....maybe someday, I won't have to remind myself.