Thanks for all the encouragement. May I ask when the numbness went away or got better. My mom's doctor never told me that she was so ill she would die within 6 months. He said to me she had chronic conditions and they could not be fixed. I guess he did it explain it well, or I did not really hear what he was saying. She told my friends and rarely mentioned chest pain and I did not tell her doctor. The problem is the doctor said they could not do anything for her but meds.

I am so sorry for your loss! I am in the numb and its not real stage. Thanks for writing me I need support I am so lonely and lost without my mom's love and guidance. I took care of her for over 3 1/2 years she suffered knee pain(needed replacement), Fibromyalgia and I did everything for her and I am so glad I had the time to show her my love unfortunately I would become overwhelmed and we would get into a fight. I wish I could take those words back, but I can not. I believe and know she is with our Heavenly Father.

Julie

thanks for your support the picture on my site is cody and my son dacoda

Hi Laura,

Thanks so much for checking in with me. My birthday was on Wednesday, and it was so hard not having dad there. He would always ask me "what do you want for your birthday?"... and I would always say "a pony." It was our little joke. It's strange, but since then I've been feeling a bit numb, and I found it difficult to post. It's good to be talking again -- it really helps.

My mom has been so helpful to me. We hug all the time -- we've always been super close. I still feel like a part of me has been cut out though. Even though I know he's gone in my mind, I still have these moments where I'll think, "oh, I can't wait to show this to dad." A part of me still doesn't entirely believe it....

I hope you're doing well. I looked at the pictures of your daughter, and she's very beautiful. Thanks again for all your help.
-Cat

Hi Laura,

Thanks so much. I really needed to hear that. I've been feeling exactly like that -- now that my dad's gone, I feel like I've lost all purpose.

I'm going to try and talk with my mom -- I hope I can comfort her a bit. Thanks again.

Hi Laura,

To be honest, things aren't going so great today. My mom is really upset and I don't know how to help her.

We're really close, and she's been helping me a lot -- I know she needs me to comfort her at times like this, but I feel so sad myself that when she cries, I feel entirely overwhelmed. Now she's mad at me because she says that she comforts me, but I won't do the same for her...

I just feel so lost without my dad. When he was here, I could always give the rest of my family emotional support when they needed it, and know that I could go to him if I felt overwhelmed. He never expected anything from me in return for his comfort or love.

I just feel so lost without him.

Thanks for checking in with me. It's nice to know someone cares.
-Cat

Just wanted to send you a truckload of hugs:

Hi Laura - I'm sorry you have to join this 'club' of parents who have lost children. Life without them is very hard and the journey of grief we now find ourselves taking is a long and rocky one. My daughter Meshael died in June 2001 - she had a rare blood disorder Fanconi Anaemia, she was just 14 when she finally lost a long and painful fight with the disease. It took me a little time to realise that the very best people to turn to are other bereaved parents - only we really understand the pain we suffer daily, even years later. There are some lovely people here and we will gladly help you as you stumble along.
I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter - she is with some other very special Angels now. Take care and God bless
Gail x