i feel so depressed in about 2 weeks and 2 days i will be having my second child and my mom wont be with me. my mom was there for the birth of my first  and i was so happy to have her there. now its just gonna be me and my husband there and half the time we are arguing. im so ready to have this baby but not looking forward to not having my mom there. im naming my baby after the two most important women in my life my grandmother and mom that both passed away. its so hard not having anyone to turn to or to understand what u are going thru not even ur other half. but what can i say he hasnt experienced loss that way and i wouldnt want him to. its just sad to know ur kids will never know who she was or how much she would have love them both. my mom was so excited when she knew she was going to be a grandma just extatic and when they were born she was so happy and proud she would tell the whole world. then just 7 months later she was brutaly taken away from us in the most selfish manner. i hate the man that killed her not only cuz i knew him but because he made her unhappy and when she was finally happy he didnt want her to b.

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Comment by Kathy S McBee on July 26, 2012 at 9:36pm
Oh, Steacy. So much is happening in such a short time, isn't it? I lost my mom March 2010, Dad in November 2011, and my hubby in December 2011. I know how you feel - it's overwhelming. Maybe you could take a word from me - no disrespect? You still have your man; if you love him, just be honest and real with him. Don't put up a wall. Just be direct. Your Mom will be with you - and your children - in your memories. I know you will share those. Just be kind to yourself, your love, and your children. The rest will follow. You have to be tough where the rest of the world is concerned - be gentle in your home. (For what it's worth . . .)
Comment by Amanda Ab on July 25, 2012 at 11:49pm

Hi Steacey,

Sorry for the loss of your mother in such a cowardly way. I know the feeling of loosing someone to murder. Our lives are forever changed when we loose someone so close and special in our lives. Although, it is really hard to function in life without them, I ask that you simply hold on to your child and your soon to be new born baby. Its amazing how much our children, who dont really know whats going on around them, can actually do for our souls!

Take Care of yourself and  Healthy Baby Vibes coming your way!

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