Just wanted to say, Linda, you have posted really lovely photos.
I understand when you say you can't imagine a future without your soulmate. I try to convince myself by saying that the fact that I still can't accept my loss is because it was so sudden and unexpected, and I'll never be able to come to terms with it. For me, my love isn't d.... He's just not here. I never use that word, never have done and never will.
But then again, I think, having related to others in this group, even when you know your loved one is leaving you, it's equally heartbreaking and devastating. No matter what the circumstances, our grief is equally unbearable, only others (like in this group) who are going through the same grief are able to understand what you're going through, and it's comforting and soothing sharing our thoughts together.
"I hold back from seeking death, as well...I still need to set an example for some people in my life. I also feel that maybe taking your own life might somehow then inhibit being able to connect with him, like maybe be in a different…"
I feel bad about your anniversary. It really hit me hard to read your words about how you cried that hard. I can't come up with anything to say, but I get it.
I am at 6 1/2 years. 6 1/2 lost years. "
"I am not Jeff, but I think I can answer as well, since yes: Those were things I experienced.
I have cried so hard that I got sick and would almost vomit. I have thought of many things that would be so nice if they claimed my life at that moment.