Thank you so much for your comment. So sorry to hear about your husband dying from a heart attack. I completely can understand your pain. It has been about 11 months now for me, and it still feels like yesterday. I don't cry as often as I did in the beginning but I still think about him all the time. It's hard to even imagine a future now. I'm just curious how you have you coped with the unexpected loss, if you feel like sharing.
You sound so determined to carry on your husbands legacy regarding your property: good for you. That is how I feel too. I feel the baton has been handed to me if you will, to be the next caretaker. We didn't put in all this work to see the property go to wrack and ruin. It gives me purpose and I know you feel the same too. I believe it will make us stronger in the long run.
With all this manual work and my adrenaline working over time I have lost a few kgs in weight, which hasn't hurt me. I feel better physically, but I have a way to go yet emotionally.
How lovely to have such a nice neighbour who is prepared to come over and help you. It makes a huge difference doesn't it? Do you have many friends who make regular contact?
I have a couple that do, that's what counts I think. Others say a lot but I think it just makes them feel ok. When you suffer a death like we have, you soon find out who is genuine and who isn't. Often it's the ones you think you can count on, that you finally realise, you can't.
It has been constant here for the last week with rain showers. The grass is growing at the rate of knots and in between the rain I mow: either by push mower or ride on. If I'm not doing that I'm pruning low lying small tree limbs or whipper snipping grass and edges. If I was in a small apartment/unit I think I would go crazy.
I won't wish you a happy new year, but I will wish you one with lots of love, peace and as much happiness as you can muster knowing that your love will always be by your side, no matter what.
Maybe your FIL really didn't know what he should do? But I do understand your irritation, I really can feel for you.
Yesterday I mowed for 3 hours until it rained so hard I had to stop. While ever I'm doing that I feel at peace. But at the same time, just like you, so many places on our property just bring me to tears because of the memories I have.
I woke this morning to a new year and of course I cried. I get so fed up with crying and as you know, all the "what if's" just spring to mind again. Things I can never, ever change.
The bbq was nice. Marty and Joel who have been like adopted sons to me come over every weekend to help in some way or whenever I need help with something. They were here along with another young family. The young family have been kind too, but they aren't someone I would have here often. Young children who aren't properly supervised I find annoying, especially now.
I was thinking of you this morning as I woke, knowing that you would soon be into your NY. I wish you peace.
Thank you. It was just him and me. Now I am facing a hip replacement on Jan 4th. I put it off during his illness which lasted 5 months. I am getting very afraid of the surgery and could use one off his hugs about now.
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