Hello Scottishbrat. I just passed the 4 year mark of losing my husband. With him I felt complete. Now I just seem to be in limbo. I don't remember what hobbies I used to enjoy. My life had been taking care of him and the 2 wonderful children we had. His dreams were mine. With him gone I am just floundering. Altho my son and daughter are in their 20's they show no urgency in meeting anyone and giving us grandchildren, which was the one thing my husband cried about during his cancer treatment...he'd never see a grandchild and be able to spoil them. I spent my first year alone angry at God and the world. He was only 57 and a better person than I was. I should've been the one God called. Your husband sounds like an amazing and giving man. I'm sure he touched a lot of souls out there. That makes it all the tougher to be without him. I share your pain.
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