Maria's Comments

Comment Wall (2 comments)

You need to be a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community to add comments!

Join Online Grief Support - A Social Community

At 7:01pm on September 3, 2019, Joe Kelly said…

Maria,

The only comfort I can possibly provide is that your mother and father are blissfully reunited eternally in spirit.  I lost my wife to cancer over 18 months ago.  We were together since age 16 and would had celebrated our 50th wedding anniversary this December 3rd.  In 1982, I had what I called an OBE (out of body experience) which was published on the NDERF (near death experience research foundation).  They classified it as an NDE.  I was hit and thrown by a truck, felt nothing and found my self like an invisible cloud floating above my body.  It was blissful like I could stay there forever.  I saw things that I shouldn't had been able to see because of the position of my body.  A thought of my pregnant wife suddenly flashed through my consciousness and thought to myself, no, I can't go yet.  I dove back into my body seeing myself getting closer to it as I dove inside, yet it was so fast.  That experience never left me as I can remember it like it just happened.  Why am I telling you this?  Because my spirit separated from my body.  True, I didn't go all the way but it is enough to believe that there is conscious life after death.  My wife and I had true love for each other as though we were one.  We often talked about the fact that we will be together forever when we pass on throughout the years.  When I held her in my arms the final hours, we spoke about the love we have for each other.  It was nice that our grown children got there before she passed so she could see them.  She smiled up at them and said she was sorry, feeling sad they were crying.  She even told me not to cry and I said I can't help it, I love you with all my heart and soul.  I gave her a final kiss.  I asked if she believes that we will be together forever someday and she said yes.  That was her final thought.  Then she took her final breath.  My first thought was that I have to go where she just went and I pray each night is my last.  I have a few health issues that I hope will take me out soon.  That's my only "till then", and will be my last thought when I go.  My children knew our love and they actually pray for me to go to her.  I tell them that when I go, don't mourn, Celebrate!  Celebrate knowing that we are reunited where we belong, together.  Yes, there are times when I wonder, but my OBE reinforces me.

The worst part is missing her physical presence, sharing our love for one another here.  It's torturous at times and I'm sure it's the same for you.  Missing their presence in your life.

My only suggestion is for you to think about how happy they are together right now.  There are cases where seconds before the death of a person with Alzheimer's, regained all memory and recognition of those around them.  These were reported by hospice caretakers.  Their love will live on together as will their spirits as ONE.

God Bless, Joe 

At 1:06pm on September 3, 2019, morgan said…

Maria,  

My heart goes out to you.  Alzheimers is a devastating long term drawn out disease to watch as our loved one loses contact with reality.  I lived it out with my mom.  It took seven and half years.

And some of the circumstances of your moms pre-death miic some of my own with my husband.  The part that hit me was the they found stage 4 from a pain in her stomach.  Same with my husband.  And to liken it a step further I found him on the floor of our bathroom.  I was getting ready to take him to his first oncologists appt.  He was extremely ill after the operation to remove his several tumors but to find him as I did I am still reeling from the feeling.  

Some posts on here get me good.  Yours is one.  I am still struggling daily to find reason to want to live.  Stay close to your own husband,  he can help you  get through this.  Life is the wave we all ride until our end.  Too much to say and so little explanation.........

morgan 

Latest Activity

Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Thanks Morgan. I wish for my own death also. I pray there is a Heaven so I can be with my Julian and all the that people that were close to me."
yesterday
morgan commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Linda,  I am so sorry to hear of more loss in your life.  I don't know about you but I end up just dissolving when I hear of loss.  Mine or anyone else's.  Grief has given me one thing. The overarching aching desire to…"
Friday
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Lost two more relatives this week."
Thursday
Linda mendenhall left a comment for Linda mendenhall
"I miss my mom every day"
Thursday
Linda mendenhall left a comment for Linda mendenhall
"I lost my mom to cancer Dec 2018 I 5ook care of her for 8 years"
Thursday
Danielle Emenhiser updated their profile
Thursday
Profile IconLinda mendenhall, Ellen costa and Danielle Emenhiser joined Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Wednesday
Wendy Zwickl is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Monday
Joe Kelly commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Wendy, I too wish you didn't have to find your way here.  I identify with your feeling alone even around our children and grands.  That was very loving and sweet of your grand daughter.  Read and post here.  It doesn't…"
Monday
morgan commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Wendy, I hardly know what to say other than you have come to a place where we all know the anguish and heartache that you are feeling.  Death is hard enough to stomach but to have your husband murdered is beyond my imagination.  Although I…"
Dec 8
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Wendy, So sorry for your loss. Yes I know how you feel and it is a horrible thing to go through. Everyone in this forum care for one other and it is a place to go to share your most inner thoughts. God Bless You and Your Family"
Dec 7
Wendy commented on Susie H's group surviving family members' murders
"My heart goes out to you as I recently experienced the loss of my husband who was murdered. We had been together 31 years, married 27. I remember as if it was yesterday, the phone call, the driving frantically to reach the crime scene, waiting for…"
Dec 6
Wendy joined Susie H's group
Dec 6
Wendy commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"This is the first year in 31 years that my husband will not be here. I've not put up a tree or participated in any holiday celebrations. Instead, my Son, unpacked our tree and decorations we had collected thru the years and while visiting his…"
Dec 6
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
Dec 6
Wendy joined Jon-Paul Ackerman's group
Dec 4
Wendy joined Julie Dolsey-Weiss's group
Thumbnail

Multiple Losses Group

I am creating this site for the many of us who have suffered several losses. I lost my mom, dad, grandma(2nd mom), grandpa, my beloved dog and divorce.Many of us have lost more than one person or event.Come share!See More
Dec 4
Wendy is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Dec 4
jacq kramer joined Julie Dolsey-Weiss's group
Thumbnail

Multiple Losses Group

I am creating this site for the many of us who have suffered several losses. I lost my mom, dad, grandma(2nd mom), grandpa, my beloved dog and divorce.Many of us have lost more than one person or event.Come share!See More
Dec 3
Marie Eaddy is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Dec 3

© 2019   Created by Ninja.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service