Hi Brenda Ann,

yes..thank you for the friend request. I just joined this group after feeling so lost and alone. My prayers are with you and I am so sorry to hear about your brother. My heart is full of grief and compassion for those who are going through this most difficult time. Big hug

hope you r ok took mum out yestaday coz she woz geting so depresset worinf abot evry thing from big sis and big bro and me and her own sis and bro shes like my dad a heart of gold kind and carein

Thank you Brenda for your support. It is comforting to have someone that understands. I miss my Mom every single minute of every single day. I wish I could hug her and tell her I love her one more time. God Bless You!

i hope you are ok im still hurting coz me and my dad wer very close i never ever want to go throo this ever agane my mum is hurting as well and our cat is still looking around the house for him he loved pets all the pets people we vist wood go to him

Hi.  You sent me a friend request a while ago.  I'm sorry it took so long to get back to you.  I'm embarrassed to admit this, but I'm not as computer saavy as I should be, and I did not see your request until tonight - and I'll probably mess us a few times along the way as I try to figure out how to send messages directly to you as a friend, so please be patient with me.  If you ever get really tired of waiting on me cuz I'm being computer ignorant over here, you can send me an email at rksharp@dohickey.net.  It may take me a while to catch on.  Thanks,

Dear Brenda I would love to be friends. Cant wait to talk. my e-mail is musicma10981@hotmail.com write anytime.

Dear Brenda

As always thank you for your kind words. As those around us go on with their lives, as they should, a word of encouragement and understanding from those here really does help. Yes he was a good man. Both of our parents made it to their 50th anniversary and I just assumed we would also. For the 42 years I had, I am grateful as some never have that. Hope you are well and you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Love, Barbara

thankyou,i wish i lived closer too.i am so isolated here.i have always wanted to scuba dive.it sounds like so much fun,and so beautifull.i hope u have fun on your trip!hope to hear from u soon:)

thankyou for your warm welcome.it is hard to talk about with people in real life.it creates such a stigma,and i know people have sympathy,but i think telling them about the tragedy makes things awkward.thanks again.

Hey Brenda Ann, thank you so much for your support and kind words of encouragement. I am sorry to also hear of your loss. I never thought I would come to know a pain such as this. It's like I will forever be broken...........sending hugs.

Thankyou Brenda Ann,

I used to write LOTS, however my penmanship has become WoRsE over the years, as my 'Mother' FORCED me to be 'RIGHT' handed "The RIGHT Way !" instead of letting me be Left Handed as 'GOD' created me to be an Artist noT a Banker, Mathematician or Any of the Other 'RIGHT' Handed CONTROL fReAkIn' aNaLyTiCaL 'tYpEs' of 'human' beings who 'lead' or 'run' Bu$ine$$e$ in this 'free' 'DeMocKrAzY we all 'live' UnDeR..some wAy ToO hIgH uP & oVeR..anyway..typing (somewhat like playing a piano, which I tried to learn) seems to ReLiEvE some of my StReSs, and UpLiFt my Lessened DePrEsSiOn, Thanks Mainly to my BEST Friend and Attending the 12 Steps of AL-anon. Thankyou. Hope you are well. John

I was raised Baptist. My father is a preacher as is my brother. My father remarried three months after my mother passed to the housekeeper. When I say I have lost my faith, I still believe in God but I have a tremendous amount of anger and many unanswered questions. I think my feelings of anger with my father also get in the way of my faith. The stress, sadness, and anger along with the fact that I will be separated from my wife for the next four months leave me truly at a loss for support. Thank you for your thoughts.

Adam

Thankyou Brenda Ann,

King David wrote: “He(God) himself well knows the formation of us, remembering that we are dust.” (Psalm 103:14) God made us from “nothing” and he can recreate us also from nothing. (Genesis 2:7) “God proceeded to form the man out of dust from the ground and to blow into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man came to be a living soul.”

This passage gives me some hope, however my analytical visual mind requires Proof. Where in the Bible does it say that Jesus brought anyone back from the dead who was cremated into ashes as my Father was ?

Unfortunately, my Dad told my Best Friend, who assumed he had Faith because he went to Catholic Church every week. However, he told her that he went out of habit, "Because that's what (he) was 'supposed' to do". It's very sad that I haven'T even had any dreams of my Father being in 'heaven' in the past 2 years of my having been in his hospice room when he passed away.

My UNpredictably Sometimes nice buT NaStY 'Mother' however, told me over the phone that she saw his "shadow float from left to right in front of her 6 months after he died", however he had "no feet, arms or head", the latter which made me 'laugh' at the absurdity of her epileptic possibly schizophrenic brain having hallucinated this 'vision'. She told me, "Don'T Laugh !" and then went on to say how the 'old women in her Ukrainian culture told her mother to put food on the table so that the spirit wouldn't come back."

Thankyou for your comforting words. I Hope that my Faith will be Reborn, as it along with my 'Trust' in 'human' beings was ShAtTeReD when I was 5 years old after my own Mother's RAGE Suddenly Grabbed, Dragged and StRiPpeD me Naked and BEAT me with a PLASTIC STRAP Until I was SCREAMING & BEGGING HER TO STOP upstairs in my bedroom for Accidentally breaking her Cheap ashtray while running around the coffee table in our living room chasing my brother having fun.

She has NEVER 'thought' or 'felt' the 'need' to 'apologize', having BLAMED "HIM !" (most likely her DENIED Alcoholic Wife Abusing Daughter Molesting (?) 'Father' who Died on the same day I was born only 7 years earlier. She was only 14 when he died and she must have shuT Down Emotionally then, which 'explains' why she's So COLD and INsensitive to my Father and me, whom she sees as even a Worse 'FAILURE' after I quit teaching to 'please' her as she's Criticial, Sarcastic, Judgemental and DENIES Ever Saying or Doing ANYTHING !" Wrong !

May GOD Forgive her, for I have a VERY Hard time trying to 'understand' let alone 'accept' her as I now See her. However, she Did the 'best' (?) she could being a Good Mother who cooked & cleaned and made sure our Father who didn't want to PAY for having us Gave her the money so we grew up 'healthy'.

This is the only 'heaven' I can see, but hope it's more than cosmic dust and the endless infinity of a very Lonely Universe TOO Vast to comprehend, even though science and technology have made it much 'easier' to see up 'close'.

'Heaven'

http://apod.nasa.gov/apod/archivepix.html  

I was watching a progam on tv and one think that stuck in my mind was. Put a glove on your hand and wiggle your fingers.Then take the glove off and lay it on the table.It  does not move .So what i am saying is your body is just what every one else sees not what God sees. God sees your soul and none are the same .When you leave here. God will give you a new body to go with your soul. The Almighty  has the power to do whatever  He wishes.

Thankyou Brenda,

I appreciate your kindness. I'm not a Bible oriented Christian, but if you have a few that can help me Believe in the Resurrection, I would be very grateful. 

Thankyou Brenda. Sorry about your Loss of your Father as well. I wish I had More Faith, however my Father chose to be cremated and I don't even know if it's possible to resurrect a skeleton let alone ashes to a 'new' body in 'heaven', which I hope is Closer than Further somewhere out there in the Infinite Vastness of the Universe. 'Heaven' http://apod.nasa.gov/apod/archivepix.html