Dear, Billy Jo, sorry for not responding - had another terrible week. Just something new every day. I saw your youtube channel. You have a big loving heart and your songs are very good.
My childhood problems were important before March when my husband suddenly got sick. Now I only have this pain - lost such a great man who loved me, and sure lost my life and have no idea where to start.
Thank you very much for visiting my page and your support. A special thanks for sharing your story - it is very inspiring. Amazingly you found so much love in your heart that you could understand and forgive your mother. I just "celebrated" 46 years without my mother. I don't know her, I miss her, I love her, I blame her, I hate her for leaving me - spectrum of different feelings. I think I love her more.
Actually I had the same childhood but with my 3 step moms. So I can relate. It was hard but still easier as those were not my mothers so the pain was different. For many many years I hate my father. I know him, I know his childhood, I respect even some parts of him but in general I hate and blame him.
So I have problems with both parents. They both changed my life so many times, so dramatically. I think I am having all my relationships and professional issues because of damaged childhood.
But still something can be done. Even when they both are not in this life anymore. I still can learn, understand and forgive them. I must! I will! Not right now when I am going through the hell, but later, not next year, probably some months from now....
This is amazing that you don't give up and grew into the whole complete beautiful person. I think you can upload your song to youtube but not sure. I am waiting for your song and I am sure it will be perfect as it will come from the bottom of your loving heart.
tryn 2 be ok g lot goin on moms alz/dem dranes me im mor tied thn she is arhriter in my bons vitm d defscy 2 dnt no if i ge free prescsiosn no mor coz all ruls hav chngs thy hav nw jutswish i wz my dad wz heari do wen he wz hear lif wz ok thn so mush loss aftr him
thn mom gtes ill itlest she beat brest c just i no she nevr beat alz/dem she not evry on yv she noz thm th y ben sea her
wen she duz go 2 a day car 2 tims a wk im so tied i fall slep o do bth 2 kttins sid me on bed or seats oin frnt teoom or bn my slf dmr frnt room o dom coz i dnt wnt 2 no wots goin on coz im so draned
i still colet my tarot cards nw i fodn amzon byin voshers i can soends cherd me up a not is jon duff still hearcoz he wz a grt frind he wz 2 a lot of us
he nevr elet get his disn;ty in wy ihe did not
o sat i go 2 a club fr disabld pepel wish is grt i dnt sty 2 lng i dmt i stay fr 2 hors coz my bryh en bena a nervs wec 2 evn mt sisr 2 duz wen shes bean hea pcz pf moms alz/dem
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