Susan B, I am so sorry. To try and live without that person who was by your side for 52 years is a living nightmare. I had 35 married years but 55 of knowing him (since second grade). That much history buries the person left behind. At least it did me. I can honestly say that over the past seven years I have gotten better at functioning and doing the every day tasks of living. But inside I am still so broken. At first I could identify triggers that would make me breakdown......form grocery shopping to standing gin line at the post office....to pretty much everything. I cried all the time. I still cry, I can get through sometimes three days but something will knock me back down. I have had to resign myself to how this is for me. I don't know if anyone cries as much as me coping with their grief after a long time but it still hits me.
People here will tell their truth about how they manage their sorrow. The biggest thing I have learned from this site is to know that I am not crazy for the feelings I have gone through and the ones I still have. I have learned there is NO timeline for how long one might still feel deep loss. I have learned my loss will never end. And the day I am able to depart is the day I now look forward to. I have been ready for that day since my husband died. I don't need to "experience" any more of life. I had everything I wanted. I just miss him..........
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