I think it's amazing that you supported and cared for your mum through her illness. She would have been so grateful to have you by her side - a familiar loving face. Give yourself some credit for being so compassionate and loving.
I know exactly what you most likely went through as I lost my husband two weeks ago to the very same cancer. I miss him so much and thought that I could be his caregiver forever and look after him and keep him safe. He fought for 14 months to stay with us. I constantly question whether I could have done something else but know that we tried every possible treatment available. However when the loss hit, all the questions (just like you) came. What if, what about??
What gives me some comfort is that we had the time to tell and show how much we loved each other.
My heart breaks for you. I am so so sorry for your loss. Your mom was so young. My mother was 69 when she passed and her bday is coming up next month, so double the sadness without her during both Mother's Day and her Bday. God bless you Taylah. I am here for you, if you ever need to talk. Just reach out... Be strong, they are with US!! your friend Dee-Dee XO
I lost my mom to lung cancer this past November 2017 as well. I too, was my mom's caretaker. I know exactly how you feel and what you are going through. i was with her at her home during her hospice care and witnessed her final breathe (Which still kills me today). As I am unable to remove the image. I loved her soooo much and I am lost without her. She was my everything. We were very close. This upcoming Mother's day will be super hard for me. Her 70th birthday is just a few days after. I think of her every single day. God bless you and know that you are NOT ALONE! Sending you a huge hug.... lots of prayers for strength. Dee_Dee
Taylah, Your mother was lucky to have someone like you help her thru those last months. I'm sure she knew you did your best. Don't beat yourself up or blame yourself or think in ANY way that you did NOT do enough. I lost my husband 3 and 1/2 years ago to cancer and spent those last 7 months taking care of him...I hated that I couldn't control his pain or his outcome, in part because I am a registered nurse...I'm supposed to help! I have learned that some things are just out of our hands. I know you miss your mother, and always will. Just try to hold the good memories...We are all here to listen to you...
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