I am curious because I am within a week of being a widow of seven years how you are doing it allotter eight years? Today, and more often lately (lets say for about the past six months) I have become more angry and more hateful of having to live. As I have written here before I function way better than I used to for the first four years plus, but things have slowly changed. I am certainly still as broken as I've ever been and it is very easy for me to cry every day over something that will trigger my emotion. But I mainly wonder whether you are still missing your wife as much as I do my husband. Not many people come here later into the years of grieving their spouse. I don't know what happens to alot of them. There are some who still look and periodically post. I know everyone's situation is different, some have children, others have faith I have neither but I was in a 35 year marriage /55 year knowing my husband. It was deep and he was my everything. Nothing will ever be the same. But again, most recently I am just so angry that I have been left here to have to live. I want out of life and yet because I have yet to do something to myself, I am in prison. Earthly prison. Anyhow I was just curious how you came to be here after being an eight year widower and is it still hard to be left behind? I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable. Just thought I'd ask as I guess I am always looking for answers to help myself.
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I am curious because I am within a week of being a widow of seven years how you are doing it allotter eight years? Today, and more often lately (lets say for about the past six months) I have become more angry and more hateful of having to live. As I have written here before I function way better than I used to for the first four years plus, but things have slowly changed. I am certainly still as broken as I've ever been and it is very easy for me to cry every day over something that will trigger my emotion. But I mainly wonder whether you are still missing your wife as much as I do my husband. Not many people come here later into the years of grieving their spouse. I don't know what happens to alot of them. There are some who still look and periodically post. I know everyone's situation is different, some have children, others have faith I have neither but I was in a 35 year marriage /55 year knowing my husband. It was deep and he was my everything. Nothing will ever be the same. But again, most recently I am just so angry that I have been left here to have to live. I want out of life and yet because I have yet to do something to myself, I am in prison. Earthly prison. Anyhow I was just curious how you came to be here after being an eight year widower and is it still hard to be left behind? I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable. Just thought I'd ask as I guess I am always looking for answers to help myself.
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