SOCIETY made a REBEL out of me...THANK YOU!

THere is no way to come out from a loss not feeling STRONGER WITHIN. THere is no EASY way out, there is a swim against all human crap and a LOT of digging DEEP WITHIN. The hurt opens wounds that EXPOSE the SOUL with a MEANING that most won´t ever get. And we come to this point whereas we don´t have to BELONG to what is not improvement. We can let go the weights HOLDING BACK. Tired and done with the crawling and spreading the wings. Its all an inside job anyhow. We just go where our MIND conceives possible. But there are wings being born after the crash. THere is a part of us that is not CONTENT to just WALK among HUMAN RACE. It must go so much furhter and to do that, we must pass flying high, because the walk just makes for dragging feet exercise. It feels like we have so many curves and people that aren´t worth the time explaining, that the new path back and building inside the MIND first is the ONLY VIABLE OPTION. It´s a huge ENERGY RELEASE. THe energy  of life wanting to be no longer in the pitty pot. Tired and sick  of it. It´s enough healed to make the path construct, but not well enough to drag anyone along. Mentally I wish all well. A time to cut the crap and let go. No need to point out the craps or whatever just helped holding down. THere is no need to call it back in any shape or form. It´s just what it is. Served us well when we were down and trying to find some form of reshaping the mind to put one step in front of the other. But we know quite well we aren´t meant to live off anyones left overs energy wise. Or vice versa. We are not suckers, there is a point in time we are HAPPY just too EXIST. And there atre TRAPPERS, that LOVE us down but are quick to beat down when we want out. THere is a dance there keeping in a LOOP we don´t belong, never did, never will. Our past and future don´t belong to anyones saying and wants, or beliefs. We have our own. All of a sudden there is a HUGe ENERGY drive from that woulnd that broke us just enough to let that light from our SOULS to the universe and back, and we know it´s time to go and this walk must be done alone. Perhaps with some that want for us too. But we can´t afford that in the ups and downs they will add EXPECTAIONS either way. It´s not living for SHOW, it´s living a new PURPOSE, renewed self trying to go on without annoyance and the fears of them in us. There is no need for any FEAR in any shape or form. THOSE who have DIED INSIDE or not afraid of DEATH in shape or form. And it´s a waste of time to let anyone understand. In time will be clear that their fear of heights in most cases just supress our need to get going. And that´s about it. It´s not that we don´t like them or else, we just don´t care much of what anyone wants from us, time to do whateve we want and keep that energy of life FLOWING with this wonderful universe and we will know in time who is still along side and WORTH to walk by.

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