I don't have the words to write, but I miss my mom terribly. I know she is with Jesus now and happier than she ever has been, never to cry or hurt again, but it's hard to not be able to ask her how it is! I want to hear her tell me about what she's been up to and how she's feeling and what she did today and what she has going on tomorrow! I want to hear her say I love you. I want her to be able to hear me and tell me everything is okay and share with me encouragement and understanding like she has all her life. I want to see her smile and smell her perfume, sit across from her again!

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Comment by Michelle on April 26, 2009 at 1:23pm
I am 35 also and lost my Mom almost 8 months ago. She battled cancer off and on for 7 years and then towards the end had many visits to the hospital and died in ICU. My mom was my best friend. She was the only person I talked to during the day. I miss her incredibly and although she is happy and with Jesus, the selfish part of me wants her back here with ME! So, I just wanted to let you know that I am going through the same thing. ((hugs))
Comment by Katherine Ellis on April 26, 2009 at 3:12am
My heart goes out to you honey. I lost my daughter and would give anything if I could just call her up and hear her voice, hug her, hold her. Know that your Mom is still watching over you. Even though you can't hear her anymore she is still sending her love to you each and everyday. I am sending you hugs.
Comment by Lou LaGrand, Ph.D. on April 25, 2009 at 12:15pm
Journaling is a great thing to do. Also, there is nothing wrong with talking to your loved one and telling him/her how you feel. Many do this and ask for a sign that all is well. Surprisingly, many get a response they believe is authentic. LLG
Comment by Dj French on April 25, 2009 at 10:04am
Sweety, I know exactly what you mean. I lost my son at age 22 when he was shot and killed. No justice was ever served here o earth though I know there will be one day in heaven. I lost my dad when he was only 56, them all 3 of my brothers, all young in adult ages, the last 1 just a few months ago. Yes, we know they are in a better place than exists here on earth and it may be selfish of us to want them back. But we are only human with human natures and a loving human heart and we love hard and deep. Our human nature is selfish and wants them back here with us for us to hold them and tell them how much we love them. We never seem to take enough pics or say enough as we should. There is always words we wish we had said or secrets we wanted to tell them. A therapist gave me valuable advice when I lost my son, Shane. Shane and I both wrote poems, stories, etc. She told me to get some journals and start writing to Shane just like he was still here, asking the questions I needed to ask and tell him all the things I had wanted to say but didnt when he was here. I have many journals now filled with poems, letters and just chats to Shane. This truly does help, I just say or ask him whatever is on m y mind and even have an online blog where I do this also. Maybe this might help you also? My prayers are with you. My mom was just diagnosed with colon cancer a few days ago and this terrifies me as she is the only member of my family I have here on earth. Hugs, Dj

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