i lost my life partner on june 1st from a horrific auto accident right outside my driveway…not only did i hear it happen, but i wasalso the first on the scene with his brother…i am a nursing student and my first aid did kick in but when i reached down to find a pulse i could not find one and by the position of his body and all his extremities i knew it was bad…he was life-flighted to the hospital after 45 minutes and the doctors worked on him all night which gave me false hope there was a chance for him…around 530 in the morning a nurse held me down in a chair at his bedside and went through all the things that were wrong with him and told me i had to make the decision to let him go as his brain had started to herniate and was now leaking from his nose…after physically inspecting every inch of his body tring to find something that felt real and alive, i had to succomb to let them take him off the machines…i now suffer from PTSD with depression…i did start grief therapy this summer and am currently on meds…my counselor says i have not gone through the grieving process yet and if i do not says i will wind up becoming pathological and may have to be hospitalized…i do not want to let him go…

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