In September it will be two years since I lost my mother 9-6-15 and my husband 9-14-15 and since they left my family absolutely abandoned me no one talks to me no one seems to care if I'm OK all my friends that say they're my friends are liars they never talk to me either and it makes me start to wonder what the hell did I do so wrong that makes your family and your so-called friends just stop communicating when I ask if they're going to come visit soon they all have excuses oh I can't I'm too busy oh I got this going on whatever now I realize that all the people that said they cared apparently don't apparently I am one hated person I don't understand why God hates me so much and he leaves me alone in this world I am sick of it I'm ready to leave I don't want to be here no more I am absolutely damn lost I quit

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Comment by Pamela philipp on July 3, 2017 at 8:05am
Thankyou for what you said billy jo colt and Jackie Cooke I appreciate the support and it does help when you know someone is listening and understanding thankyou I am at a point where I am just feeling extremely lost and I would never do nothing stupid only for the fact that I do have beautiful grandchildren that I think about always and I promised my husband that I wouldn't and that's a promise I won't break but I just feel broken and very alone and I do find this website very helpful because when I feel that low and I put it out there at least I know someone can hear and understand and it does make me feel better knowing that thankyou both for your support
Comment by Jackie cooke on July 3, 2017 at 2:34am
Hi Pamela, this is normal. Over 100 people at shirls funeral, no one been near, no phone calls. I think people can't handle our grief, they think it's catching, maybe we remind them this could be them one day, I don't know but I do know lots of people find the same thing. Don't do anything stupid, speak to your dr, try to get councilling, you need someone to talk to. We are here but know it's not the same. Xx
Comment by Billy Jo Colt on July 2, 2017 at 5:24pm

Please Pamela, try and make an appointment to seek help? What you are going through is part of modern society's selfish, self centred behaviour. One thing I have learned in life is that the more we love someone the harsher the pain, the more difficult it is to come to terms with our loss or losses. Your friends don't want to help because they can't or don't want to. That's why people on this site are here to help you. They listen, they care and most of all they understand what life is like going through the grieving process. There is always somone here willing to listen to you Pamela. We share our feelings, thoughts and are aware everyone going through the grief process is very different. Add me as a friend if you want to talk. Please again. don't leave this world. You are too precious to do that. Far too precious. hugggs, xx John

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