I'm not sure if I'm posting this correctly since this is my first time. I joined this group today. I've been looking for a site and I found this one and read many posts and felt connected. My husband Steven passed away a almost a year ago on August 12, 2016. My first year without him is upon me in a few weeks and I feel as though it was yesterday.The day he died I went along with him. Physically I exist but emotionally and spiritually I am dead.I have no desire for anything no joy no happiness. I have family that loves me and I love them but it's not the same. Does this,can this, will this ever get better? I just don't see it happening. All I want is to be with him. I have a lot of bitterness and doubt religiously but I don't want to offend anybody. Thank you for letting me vent.