December 2013 Blog Posts (20)

Christmas is over, and as of midnight tonight a New Year will begin. It's been strange around here this past year. The holidays were very different for me also this year. I am about to dip into some …

Christmas is over, and as of midnight tonight a New Year will begin. It's been strange around here this past year. The holidays were very different for me also this year. I am about to dip into some pretty deep self pity. I feel like I have lost my whole family. My oldest daughter is doing very well, but she's not as happy, and giddy like she used to be especially during the holidays. Is it because we are all older? When I was young I used to dream about the holidays with my own children.…

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Added by anne on December 31, 2013 at 6:09pm — No Comments

3 year anniversary

Well, everyone says time heals everything. Maybe so but today doesn't feel like it. Tomorrow will be the 3 year mark of my husband's death. I still feel like I have no control of anything. I have anxiety and depression still. I feel like I will never get over or through that either. Sometimes I just want to stay in bed and let life pass me by but I have my kids to take care of. So I have to be a big girl and deal with it. My work is stressing me out too. That just piles stuff on me with the…

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Added by Annette Dominguez on December 31, 2013 at 1:43pm — No Comments

My husband

My husband died on December 22nd after just 3 weeks of hospital care for cancer.  It went so fast I still can't process it all.  About every other day, I have sore sinuses from crying so much.  I see his last picture, I cry.  I see his lighter, I cry.  I see his drivers license, and yes I cry.  Then it seems I can move on a little.  It feels a bit like I just dove off the deep end, and the water is so deep I can't see the surface.  I think that when I reach the surface I will have learned to…

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Added by Nana on December 30, 2013 at 1:30am — 1 Comment

Momma, I miss you!

Mom,

I keep waking up hoping this is just a bad dream and that we will talk later in the day.

I know that your passing is real, but I do not want it to be.  I miss hearing your voice, the smell of your perfume and moisturizer, your silly posts on Facebook.  

I made it through Christmas as I know you would have wanted me to.  I hosted Christmas Eve at the house for Jerry's family, but I also went as far as inviting Tammy and Daddy.  I did not want them to be alone, as I…

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Added by Tracey L on December 26, 2013 at 10:29pm — 4 Comments

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas lil brother...yesterday at court he wouldn't show his face but he is going to be in jail for a long time unless someone
gets to him first. We miss you and know you will have justice..love ya Cynthia

Added by Cyn Rios on December 25, 2013 at 10:57pm — No Comments

Daddy

You were my best fellow, my first love. How am I going to navigate this world without your guidance and without being able to feel your arms around me or hear your laughter? It is a blue Christmas indeed without you.

The day you died there was a beautiful rainbow that stretched across the sky. I…

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Added by Gail M. on December 24, 2013 at 9:49pm — 1 Comment

Getting worst

It has been one month and 2 day since I lost my husband. I have been getting anxious more and I don't want to be taking drugs all the time. I know I am not alone and I have my kids and family around me but I feel so alone.

Added by Cortney on December 22, 2013 at 9:56pm — No Comments

6 months today:(

6 months since you've been taken brother dear. I miss you very much but I know I will see you again and our other siblings are together today hopefully visiting you.. I will never understand "why"... I pray he pleads guilty on the 24th..

Added by Cyn Rios on December 22, 2013 at 7:33pm — No Comments

Is loneliness an issue for you?

When Lily died I missed her with all my heart and soul; but I wasn't lonely. I still had my husband. Our conversations filled in some of the gaps in my life that being without Lily left behind.

Recently, however, I have been without my husband. I still have Summer and Riley to play with…

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Added by Erica Farrimond on December 20, 2013 at 2:18am — 2 Comments

What is your focus?

I am having a challenging time with a specific person in my life right now. Amidst all my preparation for Christmas I need to deal with this person who it feels wants to drag me down as low as he is feeling! I have been trying to focus on all the amazing support and love I have been receiving from my special friends here on this page (thank you again). I have been trying to not take it personally, to just feel sorry for him and the pain he is feeling but today it got the better of me and…

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Added by Erica Farrimond on December 18, 2013 at 2:42pm — No Comments

Holiday time.

To everyone whom has replied to my posts that I have not replied to yet, I am sorry for that. It has been on my mind every day. I am away at the moment and I do intend on replying and wanted each of you to know that. I will reply when I can find the energy and time to put into my replies.

Thanks for your patience and understanding. 

God bless you all

Lee. 

Added by Lee Evans on December 17, 2013 at 5:55pm — No Comments

xmas 2013

i thnk xmas 2013 will be hrder thn lst yr it will be coz aftr my dad died lst yr i dnt thng i cud luze mre famly ths yr or frindss of famly or nboz ths yr 

it dnt hlp plyng xmas songs in oct it dnt advtizng stuf in aug/sep selng xmas crd in julllly it dnt i no i sond lk a msiry sonso i usd 2 luv xmas 1 tm i did bt nw it mks me feal sad…

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Added by dream moon JO B on December 16, 2013 at 4:44pm — 2 Comments

This is so hard

I lost my husband in a car wreck a couple of months ago and I am still reeling.  We married very young and were married for 23 years.  Through our marriage, we had been told we would never be able to have children, nursed each other through many illnesses and tried to be as supportive of each other as possible.  The minute I laid eyes on him, I knew he was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.  He was my best friend.  I always imagined us as elderly people, holding hands and…

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Added by Nemesis on December 14, 2013 at 8:23pm — 4 Comments

Currently

So I had to ask the seargent on my brothers case if the killer had remorse during their interviews..he didnt really want to tell me but did say he did not lose any sleep over the 3 murders he didnt even think he would get caught..Now that Ive seen his face i am struggling with not hating him..he looks like the devil...God forgive me..

Added by Cyn Rios on December 12, 2013 at 10:36am — No Comments

EXTRAORDINARY EXPERIENCES STRENGTHEN YOUR FAITH

About a week ago I had a dream. I was at a large family gathering. My aunts and remaining uncle were present and I was being introduced to a small boy, maybe 4 or 5 years old who was linked to my late uncle Jim (whose baby son had been adopted out at birth over thirty years before and none of our family had ever met). My uncle, like Lily died of cancer. This uncle whom I so adored as the gentle, funny and charismatic…

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Added by Erica Farrimond on December 11, 2013 at 12:05pm — 3 Comments

Connecting with your loved ones in spirit.

Hi I would like to know how you feel with contacting your loved ones in spirit and your experiences.

Added by Mystical psychic/medium on December 10, 2013 at 5:11am — 1 Comment

when life stops being fun

almost 3 years later it hurts that my dad won't be around to see me make it big as an actor and give a cool speech during a toast if I ever book my first movie and have an after-party. There is nobody else that I would want sitting in the audience of my open mics and there will never be another person that cared about my acting dream as much as he did, my father was not only proud of my acting but he showed up to all 8 shows, even snuck into reversals and the director, producer, and all of…

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Added by patrick corbett on December 9, 2013 at 1:17am — 1 Comment

Getting it out

Oh, I had written a reply on Change of Seasons and lost the whole thing.  Just needing to empty out my storage tank of sad thoughts.  Writing it out, talking to my son sometimes helps.

Coming up on another winter/holiday season and thoughts (memories) are running wild again.  Two nights ago (out of the blue) I pictured the snow that was on our deck the first winter you were not here.  Maybe it had been the first snowfall that year - I can't remember that.  All I know is that…

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Added by Ammy on December 7, 2013 at 3:35pm — No Comments

The 5 Stages of Loss and Grief By JULIE AXELROD.

The death of your loved one might inspire you to evaluate your own feelings of mortality. Throughout each stage, a common thread of hope emerges: As long as there is life, there is hope. As long as there is hope, there is life.

Many people do not experience the stages in the order listed below, which is okay. The key to understanding the stages is not to feel like you must go through every one of them, in precise order. Instead, it’s more helpful to look at…

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Added by Rhona on December 5, 2013 at 6:05pm — 2 Comments

2013 ^ 2012

dnt no wish yr wz worse ths yr or lst yr 2 me lst yr coz i lost my dad wish hrts me 2 mush thn ths yr i dnt thng i cud lose mre peple lk lst yr  its dec 2013 i drnt thng abot 2014 

i dnt thng grief cud hrt as bad ths till nw i no wen i wz a tran i lost peple but now im a mush oldr it seams 2 hrt very bad it…

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Added by dream moon JO B on December 1, 2013 at 4:16pm — No Comments

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