I think one of the hardest and most heart breaking things I've had to deal with since my mother passed away back in May of this year, is having to watch my two year old son, who absolutely adored his "nonna," search for her all over her house..

It's having to hear him say her name and ask me where she is, then having to explain to him that, "Nonna is an angel in heaven now" and point to the sky.

She was such a huge part of my…

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I'm up at 6am. Thinking about you mom, Missing you so much. I wish this pain in my heart will just lighten up it's been 7 months now, and I miss you more than ever, sometimes I wish I could just end it all and be with you, but I know that it not gods will for me yet.. People say it gets better, I do agree but every now and then I think about something we did or a place where we ate, once again my heart just drops. I know you have a new body in Christ and you are happy being with dad. And that's… Continue

I was 16 years old when my dad past away, it was a sudden car accident that took place because of a big rain storm. Me and my Dad were very close he was my best friend. Me my mom and Dad have always said how much we love our home and family and no matter what as long as we have each other everything will be fine, but now there is a missing piece to our family puzzle. I miss him so much and question every day how I'm going to move on with out him. It also hurts me a lot to see my mom in this…

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Coping with a death of a loved one doesn’t end with the funeral. Their memories and things they left behind still live with us and it is really hard to stop thinking about them. Whatever we do we always tend to think about them and miss their presence. Helping a grieving person adjust to the new lifestyle without their loved ones can be really appreciated. Your help and service doesn’t end with the funeral but you can still stretch out your love to them as a close friend or family member.…

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I'm having a bad day today but most mornings are awful.  My husband of 55 years has been gone now for 6 months.  In some respects that time has gone by really fast but I remember every detail of that awful time as if I am going through it right now.  And I am very bitter about the circumstances surrounding his death.  He went in the hospital to have a week of Chemo and he never left.  He developed 3 different infections while there and they literally sucked the life right out of him.  He had…

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Time passes so slowly without you, still yesterday is a blur, a distant thought lost in everything that is out of my control. I cannot live in the past, I cannot accept the present, and the future is so dim without your precious light. I try desperately to feel anything past the hurt, but there is no margin between complete destruction and a vacant heart. Though continuous, at times I feel its strength over me build, as the trembling begins from the center of my soul demanding to surface. I… Continue

You left me almost two months ago and I feel broken, empty and lonely I listen to your music everyday because it makes me feel like you are still here. I don't know how to live without you, you were my soulmate we were supposed to grow old together now face the world alone at 45, I can't do this alone, people say you are still with me in spirit but I ask for signs and nothing comes. You were a good man and I am so sorry I hadn't appreciated you or let you know you were the best thing in my life… Continue

My 17 year old son was shot and killed on Mother's Day this year.  I'm overwhelmed with sadness and anger and guilt and so many other emotions that I can't seem to control it all.  I'm easily agitated by those I love and I can't focus on anything long enough to complete a task.  My heart has this deep ache.  I want people to know that he is gone because I feel like it defines me as a person but at the same time I don't want people to say the wrong thing to me for fear I might flip out.  But…

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I don't know what to do anymore, so I'm going to write.

Every day feels worse and more lonely than the day before, since I lost my husband and best friend. I never knew life could go from being so beautiful and wonderful one day to being an ugly, awful burden the next day. In November and December, I never thought life could be so sweet. My husband and I had just moved on to the next phase of our life. We had bought a house only months before. We were finally finished moving in…

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This time last year, I was probably sitting on the sofa with Andy, chatting rubbish and he probably cracked a joke and I'd be laughing so hard, he was the wittiest person I've ever known, unique even, but I'm not sitting laughing, I'm sitting crying and in disbelief that its been nearly a year, it seems like yesterday,  and I can honestly say I didn't think those first few months could get any worse, but they have, IT DOES NOT GET EASIER,  TIME IS NOT A HEALER, it is all bollocks, all of it,…

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Remembering the day of my senior prom. I thought my dad wasn't going to see me before me and my date left. I remember being so upset with his parents because they wanted to drive us. But we wanted to go ourselves. I was getting worried because we needed to be leaving and my dad wasn't home yet. I remember saying if he doesnt get here I am not going to be happy. The next thing I see is my dad coming up the road flying in his truck. He didn't…

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