I wonder about all the losses I've had in my life I'm 35 and I've lost most of my family everyone that I was close to are gone now the hardest has been losing my bf he was my best friend I wish I could understand why and how I'm suppose to go on what's the purpose of losing everyone I loved and what is my purpose now in life

This is probably the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with as it is for anyone who loses their loved ones. As we get older it is the one thing we can guarantee in this life that we will lose our closest relatives and friends. My first loss was when I was 20 and my grandfather passed away while I was living half way across the country but as hard as that was I got through it. It gave me the sense that I can be strong for my family but this time it's harder. One year, 8 months and…

My husband died 17 months ago of severe acute pancreatitis. He was perfectly well one day and the next day I had to drive him to hospital with severe gut pain.3 days later we were told there was nothing more they could do for him and we had to withdraw the life support. The enzymes of the pancreas destroys itself and the other surrounding organs. They said it was caused by drink but he only drank half a bottle of wine a night. The first few months I was 0.K. Then I crashed and had to be…

A little over 6 months ago I lost my husband of 43 years.  We were only 19 & 20 when we got married so we essentially grew up together.  He has been my best friend, my confidante, my love.  About 5 years ago he developed COPD so we knew our time together might be limited, however many people live several years with COPD by keeping it under control.  Unfortunately, last May, he developed a lung infection and was very sick, in the hospital for the first time in his 63 years.  But once…

depression is horrible I can't seem to get out of it I miss my bf. He didn't have a easy life he was 52 when he passed and he was getting his life together and things were going ok for him and us and now he's gone and all his dreams and what he wanted to do and us to do is gone it seems so unfair to him and us I just don't understand why this had to happen 

its been 4 months since I lost my bf I have lost other people in my life but this has hurt me so much we knew each other for 4 years. He was my best friend and him passing away so suddenly has broken my heart. Especially since we knew each other for a short time I will always be grateful that I knew him and we had the time that we had together wish things were different and he wasn't gone and I didn't have to feel this pain every day 

This is the first time I’ve ever written a blog but here goes. I’ve been having a really hard time lately, I lost my dad when I was 14 and my Mum last year to terminal cancer. I’ve had bereavement counciling last year but as the first year anniversary is coming up from my mums death I’m feeling lost again and on my own. Christmas has always been a hard time of year anyway and is now even harder than it was before. I was my mums cared for 3 and a…