January 2015 Blog Posts (20)

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Added by Diana, Grief Recovery Coach on January 31, 2015 at 5:12am — No Comments

Lost Love

I am not looking for judgement here. Please do not hurt me any further by judging what we did is right or wrong. I have already gotten my karma when he make the decision to give us up but it's the reason that I am not able to accept and move on..

J and I met and fall in love at our previous workplace. J is married for 7 years with 2 kids when we know each other. Like any other affair, J told me he's not happy with his marriage. He had no more feelings for his wife and that things at…

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Added by Teddy on January 31, 2015 at 3:04am — No Comments

The Hardest Days

There are nights that I dream about the funeral, about how bitter cold and wet it was, from the rain. I replay it all over again, about how unwilling I was to leave. About how unable I was to accept that he was already gone, and just his body remained. But I refused, absolutely refused, to think of him in the ground. As cold as it was, I just couldn't imagine him there. 

There are days that I wake up from those dreams, and I just cry. I never knew I was capable of so many…

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Added by Mollie on January 30, 2015 at 6:50pm — 3 Comments

Thank you all for your support

Thank you so much for your support. I was a little apprehensive about this site because I dealt with my loss on my own. I never really had anybody to turn to. I see now that people on this site are very supportive and I thank you all for all of your support.

Added by Angelina Serrano on January 28, 2015 at 11:21am — 4 Comments

It feels like yesterday

I miss my boyfriend. It's been a little over three years since his accident and it still feels like yesterday. I loved him so much and I know he loved me. It's hard everyday without him. I'm 17 now and I was 14 when I lost him. At that time my parents didn't think I really loved him because I was so young but when he died I totally shut down. I stayed in my room day in and day out, I barely ate, and I didn't really talk to anyone. My parents started to realize that I did truly love him and…

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Added by Angelina Serrano on January 27, 2015 at 2:46pm — 1 Comment

Wish you were here

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone



These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase





When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of… Continue

Added by Ross Hotard on January 25, 2015 at 6:22am — No Comments

Comfort

It's still to fresh. The hurt doesn't go away. I hope she's finally happy now. All her pain has been passed on to me. It doesn't seem to go away. I miss my little buddy so much. I use to wipe her tears away. It's not right. I can't help her anymore. She starting to appear in my dreams every night now. I wake up feeling down. I just want her to come back home.

Added by Ross Hotard on January 19, 2015 at 5:53am — 2 Comments

pain

my heart is so very heavy, so filled with pain. I miss shawn so much it hurts bad. my tears still fall so much, everyday. to go on is so imposible, im so filled with hate, to see people go on, so happy, laughing. there are times I just want to slap them, slap that smile off there face. scream for my son to come home, not to leave me. to pray for shawn to come get me, I want nothing more than to go with him. I hate living, I just hate. I beg  shawn please help me, im getting no answer.my only…

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Added by kim on January 18, 2015 at 1:32pm — 1 Comment

hurts to breathe

everyday it seems to hurt more to breathe, I miss shawn so very much, I still wait for him to come home, when the phone rings I pray its him. I know my baby will never leave me, but we have never been apart this long. my heart hurts so bad. I ask why he took my only child, why not me. I wait for signs, I know I have had some but I want so much more.  I hear people and family saying MOM, and I cry so hard wishing I could hear it to. I just want to be with him, hold him, hear him say I love…

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Added by kim on January 16, 2015 at 7:37am — 1 Comment

I went to go see you today

I went to go see him today, I felt the need to after working my last week before my transfer kicks in. I don't know why but I started crying even before I pulled up. I sat there talking with him for an hour or so, I suddenly felt so much better after I left. Yeah it was sad still but in my heart I felt better, when my daddy was alive and I had a bad day at work or I just wanted to vent, I usually called and talked to him, and he always made me feel better by doing what he did best, just… Continue

Added by Monica Griñe on January 15, 2015 at 6:45pm — 2 Comments

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Added by heraree on January 11, 2015 at 8:03pm — No Comments

i gave in again.

everyone said to go see my sister when she got home, so I thought I would give in and go.  shes in a lot of pain and I felt so bad for her, it was a very big surgery,  and to my surprise the beautiful picture of my son shawn that I gave her was no where to be found. I felt hurt, mad and I have had enough. so I asked her where is shawns picture. she said oh its around here some where. I held back my tears  and the anger I was feeling.  how could my sister do this to me, she has pictures all…

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Added by kim on January 11, 2015 at 2:16pm — 2 Comments

its hard to feel.anything

today I got a call from my older sister, shes in the hospital. she told me she had cancer surgery yesterday. we use to be so very close, always together. I felt nothing, I could not even cry for her. when my son went away she was here for a month or so, now nothing, when she does call its always the same thing, she says , kim you need help, you need to move on, to need to get out. over and over. I ask her to please talk about shawn to me, but she wont. I feel shes adding to my pain, everyday…

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Added by kim on January 9, 2015 at 1:51pm — 1 Comment

5 Stages of Grief

I used to be afraid to die. It would haunt me just the thought of it would send chills rushing down my spine. Now, I am no longer afraid of death. Wednesday, July 9th, 2014 at 12:08pm my life was forever changed. My father passed away on this day, he fought for a long time. He had been sick since 2000 with multiple problems but he kept fighting even when it was hard. At times, I will be honest I didn't know how he kept pushing through, how he remained strong, it was inspiring to see how…

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Added by Jennifer on January 7, 2015 at 3:19pm — 6 Comments

You weren't supposed to leave

I don't even know where to start. You were my love, my wife, my life for 37 years. When I called the hospital and they said they were moving you to ICU, most people would have rushed there then, but you had been in ICU so many times in the past few years it had become routine...so I stayed at work. Then they called me 4 hours later and said I should come. Baby...you were gone by the time I got there and I'm so sorry. The last thing you ever said to me the night before was thinking about me.…

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Added by Linton on January 6, 2015 at 6:03pm — 3 Comments

2015 sucks

today when I went to see my son shawn I broke down hard like I do everyday but today is was worse, since  the new year nothing has gone right, so I know it will be a shitty year. but I know since you went away im just not strong enough to handle any thing any more.i just cry at a drop of a hat, I feel empty more and more everyday. my life means nothing, I beg to be with you, I pray to get sick, I pray for you to grab my hand and take me with you. your dad says im full of hate and I know its…

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Added by kim on January 6, 2015 at 11:16am — No Comments

Harder Every Day!

I is so hard to live, however, to afraid to die. I am just here with my only son T.J.

Added by Bern on January 5, 2015 at 7:16pm — No Comments

My Beloved Son

My Son

 March 10, 2007 was the most devastating day in my life.  My son was tragically killed in a snowmobile accident, leaving behind a 3 year old son, a pregnant wife of 8 months, and his only sibling, Amanda, as well as me, his Mamma.



Our world has spiralled out of control trying to regain some semblance of life after such a shocking loss.  Christopher was 31 years old when he died of massive impact to his heart when a snowmobile handle-bar…

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Added by Patty Hayes on January 5, 2015 at 4:19pm — No Comments

Made it through the holidays

So much has happened since 1/1/11 when my husband died. It is hard to believe that time does keep marching on. My son and my daughter graduated from college. My son got married. Three Christmases have passed. I continue to put one foot in front of the other. There is still a sadness in me that will not go away. I have happy moments but the joy that I used to have just isn't there yet. I do pray that God will restore that to me. I continue to take one day at a time which is the biggest lesson…

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Added by Annette Dominguez on January 5, 2015 at 11:21am — No Comments

just another day

today is the first, its just another day filled with pain and darkness. my heart hurts so bad, its just like yesterday I remember every min of that day. its so cold and windy today I hope my shawn is warm. I hope he hears me everyday. I want so much to hold him,  why is this happening to us? why . I keep asking, all I want this year is to be with my son, I pray  to go.  to go on  each day is to hard, I use to be a strong person but not any more, every min of the day all I think about is…

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Added by kim on January 1, 2015 at 7:37am — No Comments

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