Given that I lost the unrelenting, unconditional love of my entire life, I look back at what happened to me, so many years ago, as some kind of a divine gift, almost as if something knew that someday, I would need it. I also know that if it…"
"Trying to think of a way to express my feelings is tough right now but reading all the posts, I'll try. To me, she isn't gone. She exists in a dimension spiritually just like I experienced back in the 80's with my OBE. She is with me…"
I can relate to you in many ways. I use to say we are here because of Fate, Physics and Chemical Reaction. But, what started it all? Something had to. Big Bang? How did it happen? With what? Something…"
Every night I ask God to take me. My only hope in my nightmare life is to be reunited with my wife. I will never let her go. I talk to her all day long and know that she can't talk back to me. I know that if she could, she would. Am…"
"I'm sorry for your loss of your love Jim. I wish I could give you some advice but I can't. If you read my posts and those of many others here, you'll find that you are not alone with your grief. One thing I can…"
I too so much want to die and be reunited with my love. I pray each night that God has mercy on me and takes me to her; that I don't wake up. Each morning I wake up to the nightmare that she's not here. Every day is…"
"I'm tired of everyone trying to "fix me". I can't be fixed. I found this website and pasted the "about page" of a psychotherapist who treated grief the way the medical community was taught to treat it until…"
Reading your posts, you always say almost word for word how I feel. It's coming up on six months and never since we met in 1967 have we ever been apart for more than six months. Even when I went to Viet Nam, we were able to meet…"
"Someone gave this to me today.
A Reflection By Dietrich Bonhoeffer
Nothing can make up for the absence whom we love and it would be wrong to find a substitute; we must simply hold out and see it through. That sounds very hard at first, but at the…"
"Geraldine, it'll be five months on Thursday that my Darling died in my arms. I know she loved me with all her heart and if she could she would send me a sign. I'm convinced that she can't. I just hope that she can…"
"Morgan, Thanks for the post. It's not even 3 months since I lost my wonderful wife and I decided that I'm not interested in "getting better". That's what those who say they want to help want me to do. …"
"The only fears are I have is that I'll live a long time, or it's really lights out and will never be with her again. I keep begging for a sign and nothing yet. If she could somehow give me what I know had to be from her, I…"
This is so hard what you're feeling. You say your bereavement group won't help either, and maybe it won't, but I did find some comfort in being around people who were right in the thick of it. It used to hurt to go out and see…"
"Grief. So all encompassing.so very difficult to move beyond it. So very sorry for your loss Joe. I joined this group a while ago but find it hard to share. May you be able to take one step forward each morning even if at the end of the day your…"
"I identify with so much said here. It's been only ten weeks but seems like as the time passes it just gets worse. I know that my mental state isn't very good but I too think that until I die, I'll be in agony. Every…"
"Hi Pamela, I can understand your situation as you aretorn between two worlds. Your daughter in her own way is trying to help you with your grieving process. She thinks that her way is the only way through your grief. It is also a confrontation you…"
Your words give me hope that I will be with my mom someday. This is enough motivation to live.
Virginia, sometimes we do feel that God has done lot of injustice to us but if you look around there are people who suffer lot more than…"
"Virginia, do you think I feel any joy right now? I don't. But I think about how much my mom loved me and how much it would hurt her if i harmed myself. She could not have led a happy life if she knew that was in my future. She would have held…"
I always feel a spiritual kinship with what you write. You were the first person here who when I started reading who was honest and told it like it was. That hasn't changed and I truly believe that if anyone outside…"
I may not be the best person to respond because U can get kind of feisty `but i am going to anyhow. I will be at six years in January. I have pictures of my husband all over my house. I am still slowly going through boxes I…"
Whats the point of living if there’s no happiness? If you don’t care about anything except being with the person you lost...if everything is meaningless...if you can’t stand the pain or the numbness...if you don’t belong anywhere..if everything feels wrong...if you have no idea what to do about it...if you can’t get through the daySee More
I have been very stressed and upset my daughter came back to my house for a while until she and her family gets on their feet which is not the problem the problem is she has made me get all the things that are important to me out of the house and put in the garage pictures mementos etc. because she thinks that I need to move on she said because it has been three years and she does not understand how she is upsetting me I don't want to be in this house like this anymore how do I make her…See More
"Hi everyone Scotishbrat here. We had our 1st snowfall Thursday. If Ron was here we would be out making a snowman laughing and throwing snowballs at each other.We did everything together.When he passedl felt so lost I still do its like half of me is…"
"Joe & Bluebird,
Thanks for sharing you thoughts mine are exactly the same. I hate that I have to go on in this world. I have friends that our dying of cancer, I would trade places with them if I could. To endure my feelings I drink at least 6…"
"Virginia, you so often end your posts with something ominous. You are trying to say something and it is coming across loud and clear. Don't wish yourself dead. Try to live while you're alive. Find joy where you can. Never give up."
"Some songs have popped into my head for no reason but that are appropriate. I don’t even listen to the radio anymore so it’s not like I heard them recently. I wasn’t trying to think of songs either. First it was I…"
"I love the Doors. Jim Morrison is just the coolest. And I love that song. It's about feeling alone in a crowd. I can relate.
Virginia, why would God tell you that you deserve to be alone? I think it is quite the opposite. You are telling…"
"Hello Scottishbrat. I just passed the 4 year mark of losing my husband. With him I felt complete. Now I just seem to be in limbo. I don't remember what hobbies I used to enjoy. My life had been taking care of him and the 2 wonderful…"
"Hi my name is scotishbrat this will be my 3rd holiday season with out my love.It is so hard to do anything.l have crying spells that are so intense it feels like l am going to die.Once l stary it could go on for hours and then l feel completely…"
"That is a lot of shit to deal with, all at once. It's good your sister is ok now.
If the man who you feel is your best friend and the love of your life were to come back now, do you think you would be ready to be with him now?"
As usual, I identify so much with your post.
As you said, by burying our soulmates we buried ourselves. Why can't people understand that? If I had a child with my husband, I would feel some pull to live for that child. I felt that…"