Single 47 yrs old on disabilty since 2005, I have a son 28. I had a hard life as I am sure many people have , But this is the worst an most traumatic thing i have ever endured, and I have been through hell in my life.I got my disability on post traumatic stress disorder ,and physical limitations.I'm not crippled just limited because of back problems, and diabetes, liver disease I got from the diabetes, this is just a tidbit. But i have had some great times in my life with my mama ,and I thank God for her and for the blessing of her love and presents in my life,She had the most beautiful singing voice, and she taught me to sing and play the guitar, when i was three yrs old i sang my first time in front of an audeince , looking straight at my mama, she taught me how to sing different parts when i was 12 y and when i was 18 she taught me guitar.We sang together as i grew up until she no longer could , I cherish all the time I had with her and always will. The unconditional Love she had toward others, I wish cloud now have like i did at one time, but life changes people.I seem to have it for a select few an i know that isn't right, I seem to have it more for strangers than anyone else. But God is still working on me!!
About my Loss:
my mom was killled on 7th of oct 2010 she was crossing the the road in her motrized chair and was hit by an 33yr old woman who till now just says she didnt see mo and the officers didnt charge the girl , they said cause mom crossed 75 feet away from the cross walk , but i have proof she couldnt cross there for the medium in the cross walk her chair couldnt get over ,mom was hit and then ran over her pelvic area and then knocked or drug for 80 feet there were no brakes applied no skid marks even the officers said that . there isnt any closer till i know what happened that day , why this girl didnt see or try to stop . mom the bottom of moms chair is what finlly stopped her.
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Court was SICKENING!! The defense attorney actually came over to me and tried to tell me that the "poor kid" who murdered my mom did not deserve the death penalty because he has "issues"!!! Issues?!? I've got unbelievable issues because of my mom's murder! They are acting like the killer, who was on parole, when he killed my mom is the victim! Meanwhile, the killer's girlfriend was sitting behind me was blowing kisses to him and they were mouthing the words I love you to each other!!! Can you imagine? Has the whole world gone mad???
i feel the same. its so hard talking to people that dont understand only people that actually went through what you went through or at least simular to it cand understand and could actually gives you the support you need to get through. im just so greatfull to have people like you guys to make me feel like im not alone and still make me feel like i have a family that welcomes me so much. take care talk to you soon
i know wht u mean about your mind doesnt stop but even me i have a job a child and a boyfirend but my mind never stops thinking about my mom everyone tells me i changed and its that you just cant be the same person after a tragic loss like that there is just no way in hell you could stay the same. my brother and i ever since my mom died we barely keep in contact he is more griefing in side type of person and its hard for me because i need to let it out it just seems like none of my family really wants to talk about it or even mention it for that matter
i hope the same for you. to have that peace of mind. i have to pass by the apartment of my mom everyday then i got to work because its only like 3 blocks for my job and i know who you feel its like ur heart sinks because thats where her last breath was and its so agonizing because nobody understands or they only care for a moment but after a while nobody really remebers they just continue to live there lives as if nothing happened but only the ones cloest to her will not find relief for the pain. those officers dont care because in there mind it happenes all the time . my mothers cousin died when i was 9 months pregnant and he was going to work and a druck lady driver hit him and he died instantly and the woman was not arrested on charged for his death at its just so unfair because no 1 is held responsible and those peoples voice will never be heard so they cant defend them selves in court or anything of the sort. just like the guy that killed my mom i will never have justic because the coward killed himself and he didnt desever to even die next to her in my eyes its just people are so selfish and you really cant do much about that
Dear Tina, Thanks for your comment. I also lost both my parents as well as the others. My mom was my world & it took a long time to get over. I am so very sorry for your loss & will keep you in my prayers. Write any time just as you told me. Sometimes it just takes venting to help or just having someone understand the pain.. I'm also here for everyone. God Bless, Maggie P
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