Lily Blue
  • Female
  • United Kingdom
Share

Lily Blue's Groups

Lily Blue's Discussions

Dreams
9 Replies

I can't stop dreaming about them...Whenever he's in my dream he's either alive and happy, or hating me.Whether the dream is good or bad, it feels like it destroys a part of my soul.I wake up and for…Continue

Started this discussion. Last reply by Frances Koonce Aug 10.

Gifts Received

Gift

Lily Blue has not received any gifts yet

Give a Gift

 

Lily Blue's Page

Latest Activity

Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Thank you @bluebird, I appreciate your concern for my daughter.  I’m sorry this happens to you often.  I have been learning so much from reading the posts here. I realize I need to sit down and talk with my family about getting our…"
Aug 10
bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I'm sorry; I hope your daughter is ok. As far as waking up in a panic, that happens to me a lot."
Aug 10
Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Maybe we will continue to have distressing dreams. My daughter is now a teenager and she has ongoing health issues. My dreams now involve her health or her desire to move away. Ugh - it’s very hard. I wake up in a panic sometimes. "
Aug 10
bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I can understand that; sometimes my dreams of my husband involve trying to keep him (or us) safe, too"
Aug 10
Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I’ve had nightmares before of a different kind. When my daughter was an infant and it seemed all I thought of was protecting her. I had constant nightmares about not keeping her safe.  My heart goes out to you. "
Aug 10
bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Thank you, Frances. That is sweet of you to say."
Aug 9
Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I’m sorry that you have been having nightmares @bluebird. "
Aug 9
bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Pretty much the only dreams I have had about my husband are nightmares, in which I am looking for him but can't find him, or he has left me and doesn't want to be with me anymore, or he has cheated on me, or I have cheated on him. None of…"
Aug 9
Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Hello - you asked for honest feedback about dreams involving our loved ones. First I want to say I’m truly sorry about your loss. I’m assuming it’s your boyfriend or fiancée perhaps. Nobody can out a finger on the pain and…"
Aug 7
Lily Blue updated their profile
Jul 30
Lily Blue posted blog posts
Jul 30
Lily Blue joined donna henderson's group
Thumbnail

for loved ones who have lost someone to suicide

if you have lost someone by suicide post your thoughts here.
Jul 30
Lily Blue posted a discussion

Dreams

I can't stop dreaming about them...Whenever he's in my dream he's either alive and happy, or hating me.Whether the dream is good or bad, it feels like it destroys a part of my soul.I wake up and for a few blissful moments he's still alive. Then I remember it was a dream, and it's like he dies all over again. I can hear the police knocking at my door to tell me. I can feel the empty horror, I can see the faces of the people who were around me contorted in sadness and disbelief.I remember calling…See More
Jul 30
Lily Blue is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Jul 30

Profile Information

About my Loss:
I lost my boyfriend of 2 years and my friend of 2 years to suicide.
I almost lost another friend to overdose.
Alomst lost my nan a few times due to various illnesses.
3 other friends have attempted.

Comment Wall

You need to be a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community to add comments!

Join Online Grief Support - A Social Community

  • No comments yet!

Lily Blue's Blog

Dreams

I can't stop dreaming about them...

Whenever he's in my dream he's either alive and happy, or hating me.

Whether the dream is good or bad, it feels like it destroys a part of my soul.

I wake up and for a few blissful moments he's still alive. Then I remember it was a dream, and it's like he dies all over again. 

I can hear the police knocking at my door to tell me. I can feel the empty horror, I can see the faces of the people who were around me contorted…

Continue

Posted on July 30, 2018 at 6:37pm

Memories

Everyone keeps telling me to just remember the good times with him, that it'll be better if I just remember the good times.

So I try.

They make me laugh, but they hurt so much. for every happy moment that runs through my mind, I feel like my heart gets torn a bit more.

I loved him, I love him. So much, and it hurts so much.

He was goofy, and funny, and cynical.

He loved to complain about things, like pop music. He…

Continue

Posted on July 30, 2018 at 6:00pm

 
 
 

Groups

Latest Activity

susan zingale is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
2 hours ago
Fran replied to Nicole's discussion Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Nicole, I'm almost 4 years out(next month). At this point the pain is generally duller. Every so often, and it doesn't have to be a birthday or anniversary, something triggers a sharper pain. My life with my husband almost seems like it…"
3 hours ago
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Bluebird, Trina & Alexis, Thanks for your thoughts. Life will never be the same again. I am so glad to have such wonderful friends on this forum. God Bless You All."
4 hours ago
ALEXIS commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Linda and Bluebird I have been feeling the same way.  At work I am getting in all sorts of holiday items and it is hard for me to look at it or think of the holidays.  This will be my first without my husband.  I'm not quite sure…"
14 hours ago
JenShep replied to Nicole's discussion Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Some days, yes it does. And some days it’s worse than the day you lost him. I’m two years out."
15 hours ago
Trina Mamoon commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Alas, time DOES NOT heal all wounds. Perhaps it heals most wounds, but not the loss of one's soulmate, the love of their life. Those people who say this, don't know any better. Either they don't understand what a soulmate is, or they…"
17 hours ago
Trina Mamoon commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
18 hours ago
bluebird commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"I understand, Linda. It's the same for me. ((((Hugs))))"
19 hours ago
Monty replied to Kyle McKay's discussion Lost my wife in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Hi Kyle Im so sorry for your loss and the pain your going though. its hard at the start, especially if you don't feel you have any one to talk to. you have a sympathetic ear in here any time you need / wish to talk, i know its not the same as…"
19 hours ago
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Here I am at a another Holiday Season coming up. All it is, is my six Christmas without my beloved Husband. I was always told time will make things better, I guess these people never knew what a true soulmate is. I feel the same way I did six years…"
20 hours ago
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Here I am at a another Holiday Season coming up. All it is, is my six Christmas without my beloved Husband. I was always told time will make things better, I guess these people never knew what a true soulmate is. I feel the same way I did six years…"
20 hours ago
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I would say that your mom was fortunate that she did not suffer that way. Sometimes a person will suffer for years before they die. I am certainly glad that I got to be with my mom at the end and tell her that I loved her every day, but it was…"
Wednesday
Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I know you know I did not mean it in that way, but of course not, my question, should I be thankful she did not suffer and lay in a bed and me have to watch her suffer and be able to do nothing as so many had to do on this site.  But as you…"
Wednesday
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Theresa, I don't know if we can be thankful that our mom's died under any circumstances. "
Wednesday
Profile IconMarian Bruce and Colleen joined Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Tuesday
Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"True Brett Should I be thankful? My mom died in an instant she was herself until the last minute. Some say I’m lucky I didn’t have to watch her suffer. But my mom used to always say we suffer everyday in this earth. I would have been…"
Tuesday
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"No, she didn't everyone, good or bad, dies. Few people have an easy death."
Tuesday
Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Wow Avi I believe in karma but I’m not sure that your mom has done anything wrong present or past that would make her have gotten that disease"
Tuesday
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Thanks Theressa. Yes hope the questions will be answered. In my country, lot of importance is given to Karma and it is believed that whatever you sow and you will reap the same. Not sure how this karma cycle is analyzed and who decided if this was a…"
Tuesday
Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Yes Avi That’s what we all have to do we have to go on with our lives it’s so much easier said than done I cry sometimes uncontrollably I have hope that one day every question or any uncertainty we have will be answered"
Tuesday

© 2018   Created by Ninja.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service