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I can't stop dreaming about them...Whenever he's in my dream he's either alive and happy, or hating me.Whether the dream is good or bad, it feels like it destroys a part of my soul.I wake up and for…Continue

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Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Thank you @bluebird, I appreciate your concern for my daughter.  I’m sorry this happens to you often.  I have been learning so much from reading the posts here. I realize I need to sit down and talk with my family about getting our…"
Aug 10
bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I'm sorry; I hope your daughter is ok. As far as waking up in a panic, that happens to me a lot."
Aug 10
Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Maybe we will continue to have distressing dreams. My daughter is now a teenager and she has ongoing health issues. My dreams now involve her health or her desire to move away. Ugh - it’s very hard. I wake up in a panic sometimes. "
Aug 10
bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I can understand that; sometimes my dreams of my husband involve trying to keep him (or us) safe, too"
Aug 10
Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I’ve had nightmares before of a different kind. When my daughter was an infant and it seemed all I thought of was protecting her. I had constant nightmares about not keeping her safe.  My heart goes out to you. "
Aug 10
bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Thank you, Frances. That is sweet of you to say."
Aug 9
Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"I’m sorry that you have been having nightmares @bluebird. "
Aug 9
bluebird replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Pretty much the only dreams I have had about my husband are nightmares, in which I am looking for him but can't find him, or he has left me and doesn't want to be with me anymore, or he has cheated on me, or I have cheated on him. None of…"
Aug 9
Frances Koonce replied to Lily Blue's discussion Dreams
"Hello - you asked for honest feedback about dreams involving our loved ones. First I want to say I’m truly sorry about your loss. I’m assuming it’s your boyfriend or fiancée perhaps. Nobody can out a finger on the pain and…"
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I can't stop dreaming about them...Whenever he's in my dream he's either alive and happy, or hating me.Whether the dream is good or bad, it feels like it destroys a part of my soul.I wake up and for a few blissful moments he's still alive. Then I remember it was a dream, and it's like he dies all over again. I can hear the police knocking at my door to tell me. I can feel the empty horror, I can see the faces of the people who were around me contorted in sadness and disbelief.I remember calling…See More
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I lost my boyfriend of 2 years and my friend of 2 years to suicide.
I almost lost another friend to overdose.
Alomst lost my nan a few times due to various illnesses.
3 other friends have attempted.

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Dreams

I can't stop dreaming about them...

Whenever he's in my dream he's either alive and happy, or hating me.

Whether the dream is good or bad, it feels like it destroys a part of my soul.

I wake up and for a few blissful moments he's still alive. Then I remember it was a dream, and it's like he dies all over again. 

I can hear the police knocking at my door to tell me. I can feel the empty horror, I can see the faces of the people who were around me contorted…

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Posted on July 30, 2018 at 6:37pm

Memories

Everyone keeps telling me to just remember the good times with him, that it'll be better if I just remember the good times.

So I try.

They make me laugh, but they hurt so much. for every happy moment that runs through my mind, I feel like my heart gets torn a bit more.

I loved him, I love him. So much, and it hurts so much.

He was goofy, and funny, and cynical.

He loved to complain about things, like pop music. He…

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Posted on July 30, 2018 at 6:00pm

 
 
 

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