I know this feeling of being numb; I now look in the mirror some days and wonder who I am at this point. I see a face, but I am not able to connect any more. After 55 years with my husband, I truly feel that part of my soul is missing. I…"
It has been almost two years since I lost my husband,and I feel exactly as you do. No matter how much time passes, the pain never seems to ease. Every night I hope I go to sleep and the Lord takes me to join my beloved husband of 55…"
"I have heard the firsts of everything are the worst. Going to the first great granddaughters birthday party was devastating for me. When I got in the car all by myself I cried like a baby all the way home as this was the first birthday spent without…"
"Wow. My first holiday without her has sucked. We moved to Central America a few years ago but always had some kind of celebration. I have no urge this year because I just feel dead inside. I'm glad James and I are with my parents today so he…"
"Hi, Ronnie. The death of your soulmate strips down to bedrock those who are important to you. Your son is #1 now and when you start to drown you can struggle to keep your head above water and you'll see him there, and you will know why you are…"
Annette passed May 19th. I was devastated that my soulmate had gone. After being inconsolable and a fountain of tears, over night a few days ago, I was suddenly numb. I find it hard to care about anything other than our son James. I'm putting on a great show I think, but it is just a show. If it weren't for my boy I would join Annette. Im scared of what happens next, and wonder if I'll ever care again. I'm counting the days that I'll be raising our wonderful 14 year old, but look forward to…See More
52 years old with 1 son James who is 14. Annette my wife, James and I have lived in Belize these last 3 years.
About my Loss:
While I was recovering from a surgery our son discovered Annette unresponsive on the floor. He called me and I talked him through wat to do. I exited the hospital a.m.a. and flew home the next day. Annette passed 5 days latter. James and I have since returned to the states to be with family.
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