I don't think you are crazy. I think you are absolutely blessed to believe and understand now that there truly is an afterlife. I think for myself with my health declining each day and getting worse as I try to function, that I…"
"Richard , I have no religious beliefs whatsoever, but before Andy died 2 days before actually I dreamt he died, I told him this and he told to to stop being silly amd it was just a dream, but this dream upset me to the point I told some of my…"
"I often wonder if there is an afterlife. I'm hoping there is so I can see my mom and boyfriend again. For their lives to end so tragically, 5 days apart from each other, it atleast makes me believe that there is a bigger picture. It terrifies…"
"Richard. Yes, I can offer my opinion. there is definately something beyond this life. We are only here for a short time. As I get older I see why God says in his word (the bible) that "..life is like a vapor",…"
Do you believe in an afterlife regardless? it doesn't have to be God. It could just be an afterlife. I still believe in an afterlife even if there wasn't a God. There's more evidence than ever that supports the existence of…"
I think that is up to each person to decide for her/himself.
For me -- I do not believe there is a god, but I could be wrong, and if I am he could be a bastard (if he exists and let my husband died, then he is) who might try to keep me from…"
"I was reading about a widower in Wales who 2 hrs after his wife's death from cancer took his own life. They were a young couple in their 30s, no kids. However the in laws on both sides were saddened but not surprised as the coup had a…"
"Something I also realized on this beautiful day. The loneliness is literally killing me. I don't mean figuratively. I really mean it. My body is just about collapsing. My insides are hurting like hell. I. Can't handle the suffering of…"
No need to apologize there's nothing negative about being honest about your feelings. I myself cry every night during the day as well when I'm alone I think the hardest part for all of us especially those who have no children and…"
"Richard, it is good to hear you say that your faith is better every day! There is life after death. God created us and does not intend to forget about us after we die. He created us to be with Him throughout eternity. My…"
"Something else I want to add. I'm now outside this evening sitting on my stoop. The weather is just beautiful. It's quiet as always.
I hope Annette is now beside Me enjoying it too. I'm going to stay in tomorrow. Tonight, I'm…"
"Thank you both for responding to my latest updates you're probably right it's probably just as hard having children and having to tell them that the mother or father was gone. I suppose my diet is pretty much down the toilet as I, too have…"
I want to start by saying that you too are lucky. Not in the way it sounds but I think we all breathed a sigh of relief when you wrote that unemployment came through. It’s as though it’s some kind of wonderful sign…"
"Richard I have read you story and I have great sympathy for you o truly do, but to say that people who have children and a better financial status than others are lucky and have no meaning of true grief, I have to say you are so…"
"I just realized more so than ever that I am alone, completely cut off from the life I had, and the life I would have had. The loneliness and guilt of not doing more for my wife to save her is taking it's toll on me. I feel as though I'm…"
"It's 4 o'clock in the afternoon and I am in my bedroom alone. The silence is incredible. I stopped by the landlord's office today and gave him his rent check plus the check for the late payment and strangely I couldn't stay…"
I lost my beloved Honey Bunny wife Annette on December 2nd, 2016. She died from complications from obesity. I myself am obese and heading down the same path. We had no children and I am alone. I live now in silence and devestated.
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Its what we all keep praying for Richard. Just last night I took a sturdy cardboard box that a lamp had come in and I kicked it so hard and so long against the wall I thought I was going to pass out. Some hours can be unbearable. Some minutes we try to breathe. Some days are measured knowing we are one day closer to not having to be here alone and hoping we are going to be embraced by our beloved again.
Its alot of wishing and hoping......and in the interim praying it doesn't last long. I haven't found an end to the suffering but I will say it varies in degrees. And yes, tearing you to pieces sounds all too familiar. We just bear it. Endure it. And this time of year is definitely very very hard. People who live in the old universe still celebrating while we are jumping off the bridge. Soon we will be into January ..... try to find something to keep you busy Richard. Its one of the ways to save your brain from totally going over.....distraction will help somewhat......take care Richard....
Today December 25th and I woke up screaming out my wife's name. I chased around the apartment and am in agony. There's no end to this suffering. What do I have? An apartment and a lousy job with silence and grief that's tearing me to pieces. I keep hoping I don't wake up. It is the only thing that I continue to pray for.
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