"Little bit of help possibly. my brother the one who had a liver transplant is very good friends with his doctor and he thinks that he might be able to get him to check me physically and possibly help with the disability not to mention the obesity…"
"I was declined assistance for vocational retraining because I don't have any medical records related to my obesity. I was also turned down again for Social Security disability. I am now just waiting for the day that I run out of money which…"
I'm afraid it's back to the hospital again.
I fainted and collapsed onto the floor against the wall.
Seems I can feel a growing mass at the base of my neck that's causing incredible pain and I'm losing consciousness…"
"I don't remember if you said you had already tried this, but maybe also try to get the local news involved. They usually like to do "local interest" stories, and often report on situations in which someone needs help but…"
That's a great idea. problem is I still have to qualify based on SS disability and that in itself is becoming dangerously unlikely.
I can only pray that I do get help from social services quickly enough since I'll be running out of…"
"Richard, regarding your question on suicide I will say first off that I don't know what I personally believe on suicide other than I feel it's a fucking rip off one can kill themselves slowly by drugs or other lifestyle choices but to do…"
"I have to have more blood work done and I'm leaving tomorrow morning in the a.m. My nightmares continue. I keep seeing Annettes swollen face and eyelids.
M y black outs are getting worse. I really hurt myself when I fainted onto the floor only…"
"I stumbled on a web site and a question was asked which I'm hoping to get an opinion from those here. It may be a taboo subject so please excuse the long question but when I read it, it really hit me with a huge question mark.
Reading your experience was like looking into a mirror. my wife was 54 and I am 52 we were married 12 years. Together 14.
I am very hopeful that you will get through your suffering as we try to get through our own as well.
I decided to get a printout of my entire medical record history. It shows abnormal EKGs. it shows well above high blood-pressure. it shows more detailed information about my obesity. I didn't bother reading them untill recently…"
I'm in the same state as you. Alone, inside a silent apartment. I'm unemployed, lost my wife and we had no children. I lost her this past December and I'm in living hell 24/7.
I am in ill health and was turned down for SS…"
"I'm going slowly insane. The grief is literally ripping what's left of my sanity.
I don't know how much longer I'll last.
I looked over my medical records from my last visit to the hospital m. it shows i have blockages in…"
"It's now midnight Friday. I've just woken up shouting and screaming again my wife's name. I keep seeing her blue lips swollen face God please take Away the Pain and agony from my soul.
I have no one. no wife. no children. no…"
I lost my beloved Honey Bunny wife Annette on December 2nd, 2016. She died from complications from obesity. I myself am obese and heading down the same path. We had no children and I am alone. I live now in silence and devestated.
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Its what we all keep praying for Richard. Just last night I took a sturdy cardboard box that a lamp had come in and I kicked it so hard and so long against the wall I thought I was going to pass out. Some hours can be unbearable. Some minutes we try to breathe. Some days are measured knowing we are one day closer to not having to be here alone and hoping we are going to be embraced by our beloved again.
Its alot of wishing and hoping......and in the interim praying it doesn't last long. I haven't found an end to the suffering but I will say it varies in degrees. And yes, tearing you to pieces sounds all too familiar. We just bear it. Endure it. And this time of year is definitely very very hard. People who live in the old universe still celebrating while we are jumping off the bridge. Soon we will be into January ..... try to find something to keep you busy Richard. Its one of the ways to save your brain from totally going over.....distraction will help somewhat......take care Richard....
Today December 25th and I woke up screaming out my wife's name. I chased around the apartment and am in agony. There's no end to this suffering. What do I have? An apartment and a lousy job with silence and grief that's tearing me to pieces. I keep hoping I don't wake up. It is the only thing that I continue to pray for.
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