I have been a caregiver for many years, so I guess I now define myself that way and thus don't have much more to say other than I am a writer. My book "The Blood Moon Sealed My Fate" is the first book in a trilogy. The second book will be coming out soon. The trilogy (which it seems may now turn into a series) tells the fictionalized story from abuse to recovery of one person I was a caregiver for after he asked me to tell the story once he passed away - so I guess I'm also a writer. I'm also a wife, an aunt, and once was a daughter but now I am an orphan.
About my Loss:
My greatest losses have been my mother, my father, my step-mother-in-law, and most recently in January (two months ago) the best and most loyal friend I ever had. Over the years of caregiving though, I've lost several other people. I guess I'm a little numb more than grieving at this point. When the numbness goes away, that's when I'm really going to feel it.
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I've repeatedly been a caregiver but I'm not sure if that is what you mean by service provider.
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