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Not really feeling anything

My family is made up of my mom, my 2 sisters, 1 adopted sister (who lives elsewhere), 2 kid brothers, B (a family friend who is more like a grandfather), my significant other, and Mike ( B's son, who…Continue

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Not really feeling anything

My family is made up of my mom, my 2 sisters, 1 adopted sister (who lives elsewhere), 2 kid brothers, B (a family friend who is more like a grandfather), my significant other, and Mike ( B's son, who also dated my mom). A couple months ago, a week before Mike's 40th birthday, he collapsed suddenly and started saying he was in pain and wanted to go to the hospital. (For Mike this is a big deal because he always refuses to go to the doctor ever since he had and got over cancer a few years ago.) I…See More
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My family is large. Its my mom, me, my two brothers, two sisters, and adopted sister,an old family friend who is basically more like a grandpa to me, my significant other, and the family friends son, who is also an old family friend who also dated my mom and they still really cared about each other and were talking about being together forever. The son's name was Mike. Exactly a week before his 40th birthday he suddenly collapsed. I was at work at the time. My family called an ambulance but the ambulance driver told him it was a pinched nerve probably causing his extreme pain. The ambulance driver wouldn't take him to the hospital, only offered to load him into his vehicle for my family to take him. Mike was always stubborn about going to the doctor after he had cancer, and after the ambulance drive left he just refused to go. About six hours later, he collapsed again and was crying in pain. (I had just gotten home.) When I saw how he was deteriorating, I told my family we had to force him to go. We struggled to get him in the car (my sisters, my significant other and I, because my brothers are only 9 and 10 and my mom and B (the family friend)both have old injuries that prevent them from heavy lifting. Mike was at the first hospital for a few hours and we waited while they did surgery. Turns out he had a torn aorta. They took him by helicopter to another hospital where they had better ability to do the surgery. We followed (my mom, B, and I) and we met his brother in law and niece at the hospital. He was in surgery for hours and then they came out and said that sadly the surgery (which they told us had a less than 1% chance of be successful)was successful but they declared him brain dead. They let us say goodbye and then they took him off the machines.

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