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Paul commented on Katherine Ellis's group Losing Someone to Cancer
"29 years ago tonight I met a beautiful, young lady who would eventually be my wife and mother of our two sons.  That beautiful lady was cruelly taken from me this past year by the ruthless monster called cancer.  Kathy, I love you, I miss…"
Dec 31
Paul left a comment for Edward L
"Edward L You are correct. If you pay attention, the subtle signs from loved ones do appear."
Dec 31, 2017
Paul left a comment for Debbie brisky
"Debbie brisky, First of all, I wish to offer my deepest condolences on the loss of your husband. I lost my wife of over 26 1/2 years to breast cancer exactly 9 months today. As crazy as it sounds, what you are going through right now physically and…"
Dec 31, 2017
Paul commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Alice, You should not feel at all guilty for expressing your true feelings. You, I and the others here have been cruelly and unwillingly put in this, our worst nightmares come true, without any foolproof way to cope with it."
Dec 30, 2017
Paul commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"morgan and JenShep, Both of your comments really hit home with me. There is seemingly no way out of this relentless hell."
Dec 28, 2017
Paul commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Morgan, As hard as it is for the rest of us to endure the upcoming holidays it must be at least doubly difficult for you given the circumstances your husband and you were dealt with.  To everyone here who has put up with this hell for multiple…"
Dec 14, 2017
Paul commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Count me among those who are looking forward to death after losing my wife. I am absolutely not interested in anything else."
Dec 13, 2017
Paul replied to Linda Engberg's discussion Holidays Again
"Linda, I wish I could sleep thru these holidays as well. Then forever after that........"
Nov 22, 2017
Paul commented on Niomi Johnson's blog post Today would have been my husband’s birthday.
"Hello Niomi, I wish to extend my deepest sympathies on the loss of your spouse under what must be the most heart breaking circumstances imaginable. I lost my wife on March 31 of this year after a six year battle with breast cancer. I can relate to…"
Nov 9, 2017
Paul commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"bluebird, As bad as I feel now, I do not look forward to the holidays as this will be the first holiday season without my beloved wife. We also met on a New Year's Eve and I am really dreading that day. I can't see myself lasting years on…"
Oct 15, 2017
Paul commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"This seems to be an especially hard time for a lot of us lately. I feel exactly the same way as the previous 4 posters."
Oct 15, 2017
Paul commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Nancy, I believe the poem/song is on the comment wall and was submitted by stewart p on October 6 at 11:53 am"
Oct 12, 2017
Paul commented on Joy's blog post Grief Share Support Group
"Joy, Good luck with the group sessions. I hope that it goes a long way in easing your pain."
Oct 12, 2017
Paul and Michaela waldier are now friends
Oct 8, 2017
Paul left a comment for Bryan Kelly Reeves
"Michaela, you tell them that unless they have been through it themselves they should "F" off. Especially what you had to witness. My heart goes out to you."
Oct 8, 2017

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About Me:
54 years old, devastated and heartbroken.
About my Loss:
Lost Kathy, my beautiful wife of over 26 and a half years to metastatic breast cancer after 6 years of courageously fighting this dreadful disease on March 31, 2017. She was my everything and I have just about given up my will to live after losing the love of my life.
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At 5:00pm on October 2, 2017, Joy said…

Paul, I'm very sorry that you lost your wife, Kathy and the tremendous void her passing has left you with. I'm sending my prayers up for you and your family too! I hope you've found some comfort from the site. We all know what it is to lose someone we love dearly, so we all share a bond that way.

Thanks for responding to my post. It is very tragic what's happening. The only consolation I find in all of our losses is that our loved ones don't have to deal with any of the crap happening here in this world anymore. That doesn't help those of us left behind because we're still here dealing with it every day.

 
 
 

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Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Yes Brett, perfectly said. They will surely forgive us and I just need to forgive myself.  I will be fulfilling her pending wishes which will help me to forgive myself and also take more care of my Dad as he is alone now."
47 minutes ago
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Avi, I am sorry that it's taken a while for me to respond to you. I ready your story and I felt it. I am so sorry about your mom. If someone were to ask me what the prevailing emotion on this website is, I'm not sure that I would say…"
1 hour ago
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Thanks for amazing words Brett. Yes the belief that we will meet our mother in heaven is a great motivation to love life."
1 hour ago
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"A friend of mine lost his brother to suicide last year. My friend asked me if I thought that his brother was in Hell. There's a question that no one wants to be asked. There's just no way of knowing. And I don't want to make a joke…"
1 hour ago
Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"I have to add I miss my mom terribly, every single night I get in bed and in the darkness I cry and tell her if you are near me and can hear me I love you mom.   I say to her one day you will let me know what happened. Every night I say…"
5 hours ago
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Well said theressa. I have got the first motivation to get out of grief. My mother always wanted to have our own car which I never bought but now my first aim is to fulfil this wish."
5 hours ago
Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Avi I am very sorry for your loss, this is a great group. Brett somehow you always seem to shed light on a dismal situation.  Thank you. Virginia- no God does not allow bad things to happen to people, when we are brought into this world our…"
6 hours ago
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Virginia, it will be better if you dont find out the things you should have done better in hospital. It will make your grief stronger. I tried but stopped in between because it was causing lot of pain."
7 hours ago
Virginia G commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Brett, Bluebell,   thanks for the love and for caring.  I am still afraid of not knowing what happens to people that end their life.  I wouldnt want to ruin my only chance to be with her again.  Then again, wouldn’t a…"
9 hours ago
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Virginia, I thought about it but it was never a real possibility for me. As I said earlier, there is nothing in this world that would hurt my mom more than ending my own life. I will never do it. I try to be careful. I'm such a religious…"
yesterday
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Agree with you Virginia. Sometimes we actually dont know what we are doing."
yesterday
Mike H. posted a blog post

What Can Help Me if I'm Depressed?

The best help comes from “God, Who comforts and encourages and refreshes and cheers the depressed.”—2 Corinthians 7:6, The Amplified Bible.What God gives to help the depressedStrength. God “refreshes and cheers” you, not by removing all your problems, but by answering your prayers when you pray for the strength to cope. (…See More
yesterday
Virginia G commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Avi, Im sure you were giving your Mom the medicines that you thought were best at the time.  Did you ask the doctor if that one dose would have made a difference?  Sadly, it probably wouldn’t have. I had no idea there were only a few…"
yesterday
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Thanks bluebell. Yes I joined the group so that I can discuss by grief and get some good advices. Virginia, same thing happened with me as well. My mother oncologist was also not telling me complete details amd just use to say that only few days…"
yesterday
BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Avi I am very sorry for your loss. I understand the sadness and guilt you are going through right now; all of us do. This is a good place to come and talk and share your feelings. You may not get an answer back right away sometimes, but there has…"
yesterday
Virginia G commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Avi,   welcome, people on here are very supportive.  I am going through the same guilt as far as what happened in the end.  In the hospital, I didn’t talk to the doctors enough, I don’t know what I was doing.  Now I…"
yesterday
BLUEBELL commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Virginia It sounds like you are in a very dark place. Before it gets too bad, I beg of you to reach out for help. Call 911 if you have to. Trust that you will feel better than you do now and you have to be alive to find that out. Bluebell"
yesterday
Virginia G commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"  As always, Brett thank you for your caring posts.  I think you could be a writer or counselor.  Thanks everyone else for support also.  I can’t offer any help because I dont know what to do.  I was thinking tonight,…"
yesterday
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Hi Guys This is Avi and I am from India. I lost my mother on 15 may after her 7 months battle with last stage gall bladder cancer.  The grief that I possess now is that although I was closely monitoring her treatment since the first day, I was…"
yesterday
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Theresa, I feel like a hypocrite when I try to think of something to say to you that would bring you peace. Because I know that I would feel the same way you do if that had happened to me. There was something. Before my mom came home on Hospice, she…"
yesterday

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