I’m Nichole, I’m 44 years old. I’m the mother of three amazing children. I love animals and volunteer with several animal rescue groups.
About my Loss:
The love of my life Michael died. I met him when I was 14 and he was 18, it was instant love. We dated for a year and my father found out Michaels age and ran him off. The years passed and I searched for Michael and he searced for me with no luck. We met and married other people. Finally, 27 years later Michael and I found each other. We instantly connected again, but we were both married and could not leave our marriages at the time. We proceeded to have a 2 year affair. He unexpectedly passed away, I had no idea. We live in different towns and 4 days went by without me hearing from him. I just got a text from his wife with a link to his obituary. She wrote a nasty note and of course called me every name you can think of. I don’t know if she found my number in his phone. I don’t know how he died. I’m an emotional wreck. He and I had plans to be together as soon as we both had our finances in order. Now I’m left to grieve alone. My heart is shattered!
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