i can can understand your fear.. Most of us here you are right, are NOT okay. Most of us are going through the motions of a life but are dead inside. It's coming up a year for me Feb 11.. I cannot tell you how I made it this…"
"I am not functioning well either! I am a robot doing things that I do not care about doing because I have to. I feel like the walking dead. I am dead inside.nothing bring me joy.. My Grandchild only remind me he is missing. I miss him do much it…"
"Morgan: your words express exactly how I feel. I no longer want to live.i get up every morning and go through the motions of a life because I must. I come home eat chocolate drink a beer go to bed and do it all over again like I am on auto pilot. I…"
I thought I was alone with this. I walk around everyday and do things as if he is watching me do it. I was wondering if I was the only one? I am not sure if he is with me really but it feels like he is? Yet sometimes I feel so alone? Is…"
I could not read your reply to me until you became friends with me. I think the vibration thing is also a way that they can communicate. I think that the " pull" would be something I would like to experience. I have not…"
"Hi Jennifer and Welcome:
You will find comfort here. I understand that you were looking for something more uplifting but I think that we all walk around with our " in public brave face" that we find that we can truly say what we really…"
"Hi Kim and Jackie:
18 weeks for me. I too cannot believe I have survived ( barely) I too am suddenly and hit with the fear that this is it! How can I ever go on.. And I really do not want to. I am going through the motions because I have too. I…"
I agree, I joined this group and have been worried all night that I should not have. I am no where near moving on either. In fact the way I feel now I am content not to as to not devalue our relationship. So I will watch from afar and…"
"Great list Nora! I think it is important to set goals everyday. Hope the job search is going well. Today I actually felt "normal" for a couple of hours. I went to my Granddaughter's dance recital and out for dinner. I hate going out (…"
I feel the same agonising pain, 5 weeks since my partner of 36 years died in my arms, everyday is worse than the day before, I don't want to wake up alone, go through the day alone, and go to bed alone, each second without her by me is one too many. I can't eat or sleep, I don't want to see or to talk to anyone, I just want this pain to end and my life back
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As hard as it is for the rest of us to endure the upcoming holidays it must be at least doubly difficult for you given the circumstances your husband and you were dealt with.
To everyone here who has put up with this hell for multiple…"
"Paul, In particular this time of the year everyone who hasn't lost their love is celebrating. I used to be one of them. Then one day a long time ago, I took my sick husband to the hospital Xmas Eve day and found out the day after…"