I am 52 years old and single, never married. I live in Florida. I am currently looking for a job and thinking of returning to school and get my LPN
About my Loss:
At the age of 12 my dad died at home from the results of a motorcycle accident.My mom, sister and brother moved to FL from IL, both my sister and brother got married and had families. My sister got into trouble and I ended up having to raise her two girls (than 9 months and 2 1/2 years old;now 22 and 24. My mom started to get ill in 2005, by 2007 she could not properly care for herself,so I started to care for my mom 24/7 and living on her S.S. with the congestive heart failure and other health issues she was in and out of the hospital. In June 2013 my mom said that she was 'done' with doctors and hospitals. We looked into hospice care, the doctors still felt that she had six months to a year to live. Then in at the end of September my mom got really sick and she went to the hospice house ( she hated it and wanted to come home) the doctors still thought she had several months to live,shortly after we got home mom had a bad fall and we had to get a hospital bed as I could not care for her any other way as she was weak from being sick in hospice and than the fall. After we got the hospital bed she lived ten days, we held vigil that Sunday before she passed till she died and I watched my mom die Oct 28,2013
I feel so sad that no one was chatting. Please please please come back and know that you are not alone. I haven't lost a child and I can't imagine the level of despair and grief that brings. I'm having a hard enough time having lost 3 parents in a very short amount of time. I'm starting to get angry about it. We are in our 30's! Our kids aren't going to remember their grandparents! Anyway, please know you aren't alone. We are all swimming in the awful caramel sea with you, trying to move and having a hard time. Kim, I'm sending you love also. I'm struggling to find the meaning and point of being on earth too. If death isn't real, and all there is is life, and it's BETTER THERE, whats the point of HERE? Anyways....here's hoping for an easier day for everyone. Nicholle
dear lisa, im so very sorry for your loss, I to am grieving for my only child, my son shawn, im sorry you cant get anyone to talk to you in chat. I hope next time you are in there ill be there to. I know the pain you are in, I lost my mom 32 years ago and it still hurts. in nov I lost my son, the pain is unbearable for me. I cry everyday and night, hes my life and I was with him when he left me. I go see him everyday and omg the pain. I pray every night to go with him. I feel so alone, empty. I hope to talk to you soon, bye kim
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