Lawrence beck
  • Male
  • Camp Verde, AZ
  • United States
Share on Facebook MySpace
  • Blog Posts
  • Discussions
  • Groups (1)
  • Photos
  • Photo Albums
  • Videos

Lawrence beck's Groups

Gifts Received

Gift

Lawrence beck has not received any gifts yet

Give a Gift

 

Lawrence beck's Page

Profile Information

About Me:
I'm 28 I served in the army for a year and 2 months and was medically discharged my fiance had just re enlisted in the army when she was killed.
About my Loss:
I was at work when my brother came and told me that my fiances sister needed to talk to me , I knew then something was terribly wrong. I got on the phone and her sister told me i needed to go to my fiances moms house that she couldn't tell me over the phone. I asked my brother what was going on I asked if it had to do with julie. Then he told me she was in an accident and she didn't make it. This was 8 months ago Sunday. I have been trying to move on and get back to dating, but I can't, I've never been one to ask for help and I've constantly kept myself busy, but everywhere I go I think of her. I'm tired of having bad days, but I feel like if I move then I really have to let go. For 8 months I've tried to process this loss but it doesn't make sense it hurts me down to my core, I feel like if I was the one to take her to her drill weekend she would still be with me. Sorry for such a long story but I've been holding on to this for to long. My faith in Christ has given me the strength to face the bar days and keep striving on,but like I said I just don't understand.

Comment Wall

You need to be a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community to add comments!

Join Online Grief Support - A Social Community

  • No comments yet!
 
 
 

Latest Activity

Speed Weasel posted a blog post

Assumptions

An assumption is an unexamined belief: what is thought to be true without ever really realizing that we think in that way. For better or worse, understanding starts with entertaining the idea that something is true.  Truly profound thoughts generally come to light from the relaxation of these (flawed) assumptions.  This is where I find myself today...Perhaps, one of the more significant drivers to pushing down the loss and grief at the time of the accident, ignoring it and mindlessly walking…See More
Mar 13
Profile IconCari Jo Converse, Jennifer and James D. Thornsberry joined Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Mar 13
Profile IconMarina Dsouza, Leah, Sandra M Aaron and 5 more joined Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Mar 5
esther joined HollowHeart's group
Thumbnail

Sibling Loss

This group is for anyone that has lost a brother or sister. Sibling loss is often minimized and people don't realize how devastating losing a sibling can be. I lost my older sister and my life will never be the same. She was my only sibling, I looked up to her, I went to her for everything. I lost my past, present and future. It is traumatic.See More
Mar 4
Speed Weasel posted a video

Sun Keeps Risin'

Provided to YouTube by The Orchard EnterprisesSun Keeps Risin' · Lissie · Elisabeth Corrin Maurus · Martin CraftMy Wild West℗ 2015 Lionboy RecordsReleased on...
Feb 26
Speed Weasel posted a blog post

Triggers Continue to Surface

Late February is a challenging time of year for me.  Jen’s birthday is the 23rd and serves as an annual reminder of all of the potential that was lost…Her’s (mainly), mine, the world’s honestly.  This year she would be 52…It is increasingly hard to imagine, through all of the iterations possible, what she could have become, what was to be her (significant) impact on the world.That being said, things, emotions, have largely settled down since I committed a potential version of what could have…See More
Feb 15
Michelle joined Gyla Lynn Darden's group
Thumbnail

Loss of a child In memory of my son or daughter

This group focuses on healing ourselves and each other over the death of a child and welcomes a Christian atmosphere to help with the healing process. I welcome all of those grieving.See More
Feb 8
Tammy McLaughlin and Rosie are now friends
Jan 30

© 2024   Created by Ninja.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service