2003- My Dear Aunt. My namesake. The one who raised me. The one I ran away from the moment she got "too sick". She was in the nursing home next to the house I lived in and I never went to see her. I didn't want to. I couldn't. I was 14, a Freshmen in High School. The plan was always for me to live with her when I was in High School because her house was on the same block. But the tumor in her brain didn't care.
2007- My Grandma. We shared the same bed for what seems like my entire childhood. When I got older, I would take my mattress to her room and sleep next to her bed while she told me stories of the old days. I did this up until the day she got rushed to the hospital because her heart was failing. I was 17 and I was about to graduate from High School.
2012 - My Uncle. The one who was always there for everyone.. especially me- the one who's father left when she was 2. I was his favorite and he was mine. After his wife passed in 2003- he lost himself. Alzheimer's. in 2007 he was placed in the home. The last time I saw him was at my high school graduation party-- then at his funeral. I was 22 and had graduated from college a few days before.
2014- My Father. The one who left when I was 2. I never knew the guy. Googled his name one day in March of 2014 and found his obituary. He died in February of 2014. My Mother was Diagnosed with Lung Cancer in September of 2014.
2015- Paternal Grandmother. She tried to be in my life for a very long time after my father was out of the picture- but I never let her in. I visited with her a handful of times between the ages of 8 and 10. Found out of her death when I traced my paternal roots on google one night. She was still alive when I came across my "cousins" facebook page. I wanted to reach out, but didn't until after her death and since then I have kept my distance.
July 24 2016- My Mom.
September 24 2016- My Pug. My Sunshine.
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