Kelli H.
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  • San Antonio, TX
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I'm a stay at home mother of one that recently relocated to San Antonio, TX. I was at a very good place in my life until this loss.
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My older brother was shot and killed on September 9, 2013 by his wife's boyfriend. I am devastated. His murder is beyond bearable,but it is so hard having to remain civil to someone whose actions caused the perfect storm for his murder. The civility is necessary to keep their children in our lives. Looking for support and advice on how to deal with this difficult situation.
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1 Year Anniversary

Today is the one year anniversary of my brother's murder. For the past year I have gone through a range of emotions from sadness, anger to emotional paralysis. Today I realized that I've been living in fog where I somehow imagined that he was just unavailable for my phone calls. Today I had to acknowledge that I will never see or hear him again. How is it that today is almost as bad as the day of his death?

It's been a year, and I still don't understand how another human being can…

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Posted on September 9, 2014 at 4:26pm — 3 Comments

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At 11:12am on September 4, 2014, dominique said…

hey Kelli H , 

its hard losing someone you love so much especially in these type of circumstances i think its harder , my son and i were beginning to have a good relationship and this got taken away suddenly . can't believe its been nine months now i have not seen him smile or laugh and joke with me it hurts so much . your situation sounds difficult to but I'm sure your brother would want his children to have you in their lives i suppose you just have to try for their sakes and his but how do you contain anger and being pissed off about it , for me its been a constant battle daily with my self , i over analyse everything , i can't be asked to carry on and would rather stay in bed most days but just try  with my fake face even though i feel like crying most times its been an emotional roller coaster but thanks for adding me to be your friend I'm here taking each day at a time just as you should 

At 9:47am on April 3, 2014, Annette Dominguez said…

Hi Kelli, I live in Selma, TX so am pretty close to you. My husband died a little over 3 years ago and it is still so painful. 

At 10:52pm on December 25, 2013, Cyn Rios said…
Merry christmas:) and many blessings!! Hope this year brings you some peace:) cyn rios
At 7:30pm on December 22, 2013, Cyn Rios said…
How are you tonight Kelly? today is a six-month anniversary for my brother's passing and it's definitely hard to imagine that he's been gone for that long I'm sorry that you recently had to go through that I hope that things get better for you soon Cyn
At 7:12pm on December 22, 2013, Cyn Rios said…
Im sorry Kelli:( thanks for the invite yes we r close by! Its terrible to lose our brothers this way and yes our lives are changed forever. Whenever u want to chat im here:)
 
 
 

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