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Dona Fiedler is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Single mother of three wonderful children. Educator.
About my Loss:
I met Nick in 2018 through an online dating site. I wasn't particularly interested in him but he talked me into meeting. Once we did, we were practically inseparable. I thought what we had was too good to be true and it turns out it was. After three months he started showing signs of severe insecurity- with all the behaviors that go along with it. Our relationship had its ups and downs and we almost broke up several times- I just kept relenting and told myself we were meant for each other, despite the fact that he scared me sometimes and that I had to act a certain way to avoid a confrontation of some sort. Less than a year into our relationship he ended up in the ER. When I got there his son told me he found cocaine on his coffee table and I was shocked and felt betrayed. Doctors gave him a 1% chance of waking up because he had suffered an intracranial hemorrhage. He died two days later. I've done all the crying I can do, I think. Now I'm suffering from panic attacks, which I think is because I am filled with unresolved anger and with questions I will never get the answers to.
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Dona, I am so sorry for your pain. A difficult relationship like yours always leaves all sorts of conflicting feelings that are hard to sort out. I hope that the support you receive here will help you find your way to a better place.
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