"Bluebell I am praying for you. We survived mother's day.
Last night was pretty bad for me. I was feeling anxious all day and cried myself to sleep. A bit glad though cause I got to see my mom, even if it was just in my…"
"Thank you Brett. I do try to honor her but it is so painful. I attended church service yesterday. I think I did pretty well. No unexpected outbursts. But then I came home and found an old album of photos, saw a picture of me and my mom…"
"In 3 months, it will be a year since my mom passed away. It feels like it was yesterday. I know I asked this before but when does it get easier to do activities that you and your mother did together? I cant bring myself to do anything that reminds…"
"Bluebell i feel for you. Sepsis is a horrible and very deadly illness thst not a lot of people know about. My mom also died from complications oftom sepsis, heart failure, etc. It kills me everyday thinking about it. Im sure your sister woll be…"
"Brett you seem to always know how what to say to make me feel a littl better... I remember reading somewhere that grief comes in waves.. you’re doing fine, smiling, until a picture of your loved one pops into your head. But it seems lije its…"
"It is my mom’s birthday to two days. She wouldve been 61. Been dreading this day everyday this past month. How can someone you knew and talked to everyday suddenly not be here the next? Then it seems like their whole life is reduced to their…"
"Hi Camren. I feel the same way you do. I lost my grandma in 2014 and now my mom last year. They were the only two people closest to me. My grandmas death was sad but she was 83 so I was thankful that she had a long life. My mother died unexpectedly…"
"I would never want to diminish someone’s faith or beliefs. I just wish my faith was as strong as you guys. I am aware of what the bible says about mediums and the dangers of it. I was so distraught the first month after my mom’s death…"
"The first few months after her death, i became obsessed with the afterlife. Mediumship specifically. I started researching how I can develop my own skills and contact the spiriworld. Have not started yet. Although I’ve found some good starting…"
"I often think of death as well. I look forward to the day I am rrunited with my mom. But then I think, am I so sure that we will be reunited? My faith in God was never strong- another thing that disappointed my mom. So what I die and thats it. What…"
"When does everything stop reminding you of them? Every place I go, everything I do somehow related back to my mom. My ride to work as I pass her doctor’s clinic, passing the street of our old home to my new apartment, the supermarket where I…"
"Hi Kelly. I know exactly how you feel it is still hard for me to think and talk about my mom. Its horrible but i try to push thoughts of her away because then I would completely lose it. I too feel like it isnt fair for my mom she deserves to be…"
I lost the most important person to me 10 days after my 25th birthday- my mom. Still dealing with all the emotions that come with such a significant loss. Its hard, very hard. Life feels empty. I don't enjoy much anymore. Any joy I have is overcast with a dark cloud of sadness. I'm angry, and sad. I have lost others but nothing could prepare me for this.
Now I don't know what the word is to describe the amount of pain and abandonment I feel from losing my mom. Feel like I don't have anyone to rely on. Never was close to my dad. Sisters moved out 10 years ago so although I love them, I am not very close as I once was.
If it was possible I would exchange places with her in a heartbeat, not because of how painful it is- but so she could've lived longer and enjoyed her grandchildren (my sister's kids). She was such a selfless mother, grandmother, sister, caretaker- that she did not deserve to go out the way she did.
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Crystal, like you, I talk to my mom daily. Whether she can hear me is unknown. I do believe God hears me, so I ask him to tell my mom how much I love her, miss her and wish I could see her to give her a hug. I'd give up everything I own to see her again
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"I was thinking about this today. If I could have my mom back for just one month I would dote on her till the cows came home. The truth is my mom wouldn't have liked that. She didn't like to be doted on. At the end she was very appreciative…"
"Virginia, our stories are very similar. I was my mom's caretaker as well. I was diagnosed with PTSD after she died. When we have PTSD we can turn just about everything into a worst case scenario. It is so easy to look back and question…"
"And speaking of therapists, I have ptsd, and sometimes I feel like I don’t fully realize what happened. I sort of get numb at times and feel guilty about it. I asked my therapist if it means I don’t care about my Mom.…"
"Hi, just joined the group. Wanted to comment on Brett’s point about people getting tired of hearing about grief or not understanding it. I feel like I want to talk about my Mom constantly, whether it’s good times or bad.…"
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I want to let you know that everything you are feeling is normal even though it seems so difficult compared to what we thought we had and what we knew. The death of our spouse is the most difficult thing we will ever face, bar none.…"
"Hi Monty, I lost my husband New Year’s Eve and have a 4 year old. It is extraordinarily hard to put on the happy face, be everything she needs, keep productive at my job, keep the house going and all the other needs of life covered. Bless you…"
Hi AllMy name is Monty and i have become single parent of two special needs boys when i lost my wife and life partner of 25 years, 5 days before Christmas.My wife had Myotonic Dystrophy and other the last 2 years she had really declined both in her ability to look after herself, our boys, happiness and quality of life.i tried all i could to try and encourage her to be the best she could given her condition. Unfortunately this was not enough to stave off a simple cold turning bad overnight and…See More
"Really sorry for your loss. How awful to lose a child. I guess some people are really uncomfortable with grief and just don't know what to say. I know exactly the loss you feel. I lost my mother in October. I saw her and talked to her…"