"Hi Camren. I feel the same way you do. I lost my grandma in 2014 and now my mom last year. They were the only two people closest to me. My grandmas death was sad but she was 83 so I was thankful that she had a long life. My mother died unexpectedly…"
"I would never want to diminish someone’s faith or beliefs. I just wish my faith was as strong as you guys. I am aware of what the bible says about mediums and the dangers of it. I was so distraught the first month after my mom’s death…"
"The first few months after her death, i became obsessed with the afterlife. Mediumship specifically. I started researching how I can develop my own skills and contact the spiriworld. Have not started yet. Although I’ve found some good starting…"
"I often think of death as well. I look forward to the day I am rrunited with my mom. But then I think, am I so sure that we will be reunited? My faith in God was never strong- another thing that disappointed my mom. So what I die and thats it. What…"
"When does everything stop reminding you of them? Every place I go, everything I do somehow related back to my mom. My ride to work as I pass her doctor’s clinic, passing the street of our old home to my new apartment, the supermarket where I…"
"Hi Kelly. I know exactly how you feel it is still hard for me to think and talk about my mom. Its horrible but i try to push thoughts of her away because then I would completely lose it. I too feel like it isnt fair for my mom she deserves to be…"
"Hi Betty, its been six months since my mom died and The pain is still as horrible as it was the day I lost my mom. Its gotten to the point where I try not to even think about her because I know once I do, the tears and the pain start flushing back.…"
"Hi everyone. Havent been on in awhile. Visited my mom’s grave over christmas. She’s buried in a different country alongside her mom. Being back home is like losing her all over again. Trying to get back in the routine, being reminded of…"
"Thanks Brett. I try to tell myself that it wasnt my fault. All th time. But I think the only person that can convince me is my mom. I beg for her forgiveness all the time and how I wish that she could respond back. "
"Brett, I teared up reading your posts. I understand how you feel. . I have been my mom’s caretaker for the past three years, , although not a very good one. Took her to every appointment, made every phone call, memorized her medication- it…"
"Theresa I send my love and prayers to you. This is such a difficult month. I have cried myself to sleep the past week and noone sems to know. We are both suffering in silence. I have back pain, im always sleepy and tired. Our bodies know that we are…"
"Bailey My heart goes to you. I feel the same way my family keeps talking about christmas plans and I just stay quiet cause I am not planning on celebrating xmas this year... its been a hard few days.. the guilt of my mom’s death is coming…"
I lost the most important person to me 10 days after my 25th birthday- my mom. Still dealing with all the emotions that come with such a significant loss. Its hard, very hard. Life feels empty. I don't enjoy much anymore. Any joy I have is overcast with a dark cloud of sadness. I'm angry, and sad. I have lost others but nothing could prepare me for this.
Now I don't know what the word is to describe the amount of pain and abandonment I feel from losing my mom. Feel like I don't have anyone to rely on. Never was close to my dad. Sisters moved out 10 years ago so although I love them, I am not very close as I once was.
If it was possible I would exchange places with her in a heartbeat, not because of how painful it is- but so she could've lived longer and enjoyed her grandchildren (my sister's kids). She was such a selfless mother, grandmother, sister, caretaker- that she did not deserve to go out the way she did.
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Crystal, like you, I talk to my mom daily. Whether she can hear me is unknown. I do believe God hears me, so I ask him to tell my mom how much I love her, miss her and wish I could see her to give her a hug. I'd give up everything I own to see her again
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