Cristal
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  • Johnson City, TN
  • United States
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Monty replied to Cristal's discussion Rejoining the rest of the world in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Hi Crystal   I found going back to work (due to needing to support my family) possibly saved me a little from falling to much into my grief. It was also very good for me to be around normal adults, as i don't have much family near by, and…"
Aug 12, 2018
Cristal replied to Cristal's discussion Rejoining the rest of the world in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Thank you. "
Aug 4, 2018
Beth Swansboro replied to Cristal's discussion Rejoining the rest of the world in the group Lost My Spouse...
"It takes time getting back to life. I am not back to work yet. Maybe this fall. Glad you found something that helps you. One day at a time. May God Bless you Cristal."
Aug 4, 2018
Cristal added a discussion to the group Lost My Spouse...
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Rejoining the rest of the world

I am getting ready to return to work for the first time since the death of John. I know I have to go on living for now. I have reflected on my spiritual beliefs. I have to believe that John is indeed still alive but in a different way than I am. I found a site called Soul Proof. A lot of material I found there was in line with my concept of God and spirituality. It has brought me comfort.
Aug 4, 2018
Cristal replied to Cristal's discussion Struggling in the group Traumatic, Sudden Loss
"Thank you for your words of wisdom. I am trying to take things slowly and focus on myself. I am planning on going back to work this weekend. I work with an amazing group of people and I think it will help me right now. Some of them are dealing with…"
Aug 1, 2018
Christopher replied to Cristal's discussion Struggling in the group Traumatic, Sudden Loss
"Hi Cristal.Welcome to the hardest part of your life. This is the worst it will ever get, which is both bad and good at the same time. You're going to become a new woman after you make it through this journey.There are no short cuts. Take this…"
Aug 1, 2018
Cristal added a discussion to the group Traumatic, Sudden Loss
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Struggling

Hi. My name is Cristal. I lost the love of my life on July 2nd. He had leukemia and had no idea. I begged him to see a doctor in the months prior to his death but he would not do it. He also suffered from poorly controlled diabetes. I am struggling to get through the pain of losing him. His name was John.
Jul 31, 2018
Cristal joined Julie Dolsey-Weiss's group
Jul 31, 2018
Cristal commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Hi. My name is Cristal. I lost the love of my life on July 2nd. He had leukemia and had no idea. I had begged him to go to a doctor and he wouldn't. He had some ongoing legal issues and was actually transferred out of a local jail to the…"
Jul 31, 2018
Cristal joined Jon-Paul Ackerman's group
Jul 31, 2018
Cristal is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Jul 31, 2018

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About Me:
I am 45 years old. I am a psychiatric nurse.
About my Loss:
My longtime boyfriend died unexpectedly on July 2nd. He had leukemia and had no idea. He had some legal issues that he was dealing with. He had lost quite a bit of weight since he was arrested in March of this year. Everyone, including myself, attributed the weight loss to stress. He was a childhood friend. We had known each other since we were 11 years old. He had not had an easy life and he struggled with addiction, pain, and mental health issues. I struggled with some of the same issues he did. We understand one another in a way that we had never experienced with anyone else. He put me through hell at times but I never stopped loving him. His name was John. I hope I will be with him again someday.

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Dolly commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter
"Do we ever stop having those days that seem just like the day it all happened? when nothing else seems real and all we feel is the pain again? does it ever just not happen any more? "
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Martha Dee is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
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morgan commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Part 2Linda, yes and yes, I "laugh on the outside and cry on the inside".  And the laugh (or just plain conversation) is just part of how I cope for when I have to be around others.  But it means nothing.  It’s like we…"
6 hours ago
morgan commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Part 1 Bless you and thanks to each one of you who keep writing about how you feel and how you cope.  I always feel support knowing I am not alone.  What I don't get (and not that any one of us can give it) is the answer to how I can…"
6 hours ago
Joe Kelly commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"It's a Catch 22, impossible to solve.  I accept Her body isn't alive anymore, but I HAVE TO HAVE HER BODY ALIVE AND STILL WITH ME and I want that to be forever.  I know that's impossible, but I STILL HAVE TO HAVE IT!!! …"
11 hours ago
Teresa D. commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter
"Connie I'm sorry but just know your words do stay in my head. Keven's mom...I'm so sorry that phone came.  There's nothing I can say or do to make this easier on you.  Just know we know exactly how you feel.  Your…"
11 hours ago
Linda Engberg commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Hello Friends, As all of you have stated, I too fake my happiness. I laugh on the outside and am crying for him on the inside. I ache so bad that my Julian is not in my life. I just don't understand why God won't take me. Until he does, I…"
15 hours ago
Nancy commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Morgan.  I wish I had answers but I am in the very same place.  Lost, fake and hollow.  I feel worse than I did a year ago I think because I thought I would feel better and don't. Empty and apathetic.  I'm tired all the…"
23 hours ago
bluebird commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"morgan, I don't know why this has happened to us, our soulmates being torn from us, but it fucking sucks. Have you considered not acting happy and normal, since that isn't how you feel? Especially if acting that way isn't helping…"
23 hours ago
morgan commented on Jon-Paul Ackerman's group Lost My Spouse...
"Please somebody, tell me how I can continue to do this.  I am so depressed.  I get up every day and pretend.  It's what is making me so depressed.  It looks like I am functioning so normally.  Now that I have learned…"
23 hours ago
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Hi Danny. Surviving is art which we all need to practice. Today I met a friend whose father is witnessing the similar illness as my mother i.e. late stage cancer. He is also going through the same emotional turmoil as I went in 2018. After this…"
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Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Danny. I hear you.  December will be 4 years "
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Danny replied to Carla Rose's discussion Lost my Mom a Few Days Ago in the group Lost Without My Mom
"Great reply Sandra"
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Danny commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Its been 5 years and here I am back on the site. Surviving and functioning but just about. "
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Theresa commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Wonderful Avi!!!  "
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Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Amen, Avi."
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Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Thanks all. This group is my extended family. "
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M Adams commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"Avi, that is so lovely to hear — best wishes to her and your family!"
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Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"That's wonderful, Avi. Congratulations. And I wish you another 100 years with her."
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