Cortney Todd
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  • San Antonio, TX
  • United States
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I'm not entirely sure all of what I'm supposed to say about myself. I have been through a lot in 23 years. I was abused by my father for a short time. He was arrested when I was four and I only saw him once when I was 19. I had a miscarriage when I was 16 which lead me to become a heavy drinker for many years. I have been sober for 2 years. I was in a string of abusive relationships from 17-21. I have two certifications one in education one in nursing. I work part time as a CNA for my aunt and I am currently in college to get a computer networking degree. My mother was really the only person who ever believed I would get out of my depression and make something of my life. She died on October 13 2013.
About my Loss:
In early 2013 my mother was told she needed a pace maker in her chest. She had 3 pace makers in a 4 month period. In October she had her final surgery. We believe that is what killed her. I was at dinner with my ex-fiance on our 1 year anniversary when I got the call that she was dead at the kitchen table. We could not afford an autopsy to prove that medical negligence is what killed her. It took the doctor almost a month to sign the death certificate. We had her cremated and spread her ashes where we had spread her mother before her. It has been 6 months since she died and people tel me it's supposed to get easier. It isn't I miss her more and more each and every day.
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I'm not sure what this means. I am a CNA for my aunt I have been for four years.

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Tis better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.

That quote by Alfred Lord Tennyson is a well known idea. I'm not so sure I agree with it. When you lose someone when you are old enough to remember them it tears you apart from your very core. You remember all the bad times when you fought over stupid things, when you were upset and said things you never meant but you never apologized for. You remember all the hugs and the laughs you shared afterwards knowing that at the end of it all you love each other endlessly. The gut wrenching pain I…

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Posted on April 27, 2014 at 10:08am

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