34 years old, single mother of 15 year old son. I am the business manager of my step-father's company. I have a degree in Accounting but horticulture is my love. I am the oldest of 4. I have 2 little brothers from my dad and 1 little brother from my step-dad.
About my Loss:
I lost my dad on August 30, 2015 to alcohol. He was not married, and since i'm the oldest everything has fallen on my shoulders. I'm so heart broken, and i dont no how to make it stop.
"Different today. Hurts as usual, but not like yesterday.
My stress goes through the roof at the slightest change in routine.
I have to break free of the pattern, the ritual, of Friday nights and Saturdays. My mother died on a Friday. But I cannot…"
"Today, I feel it.
It has been like this every Saturday since June, since the nurse at the care home called me to notify me that I could pick up my mother's effects. My mother died in April.
I am overwhelmed.
I am crushed.
I love you, Mom. I…"
"Sixteen weeks ago today, my mother died.
For some reason, I do not feel crushed today.
But every Friday is going to be like this, a reminder that she is dead. Not quite the kick in the stomach reminder that she is dead that I feel when I wake up…"
Carla is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community