"Something that's bothering me a lot is learning how little my relatives really cared for Diane. She was awkward and shy and they seem to have interpreted that as her being stuck-up and unfriendly. She was also very intelligent and…"
"Mark, Sometimes it seems like I've turned a corner and then it all hits me like a ton of bricks. The pain is not as intense as 7 months ago and it isn't constant anymore. But I'll have times when it is complete and utter…"
"Hi I lost my wife 5 weeks ago, she was intoxicated and intentionally to an overdose of Opana/Oxymorphone, My son found her passed out on the floor and I didn't know she took any pills I thought she was drunk and had seen her falling down…"
"I am so very tired of waking up crying. This house is so empty and my life so hollow. I am really trying to get out and do things but nothing is helping me. I miss him with every fiber of my being and I just dont know what to do. Everything reminds…"
I woke up with anxiety this morning. It has to be the worst raw emotion when couple with grief, guilt, and loneliness.It's been a little over five weeks, yet people talk about feeling less emotionally crippled in months and years. That scares me thinking I am so early on in this process. The night of my wife's passing is still raw and fresh in my head like it happened yesterday, but the pain I have felt since seems like it has been going on for an eternity. See More
"John T- the people that piss me off the most are the ones that say "be thankful you had him for 41yrs". Really? I was 16 when I got married...I am almost 58. Why should I be happy with JUST 41yrs. I wanted more!!! I feel like slapping…"
"I almost lost it last night when I sat trapped on the sofa, listening to a tirade from my niece about how awful her haircut was. It was too short, uneven, and made her look old, she said. What a tragedy! I tried to be understanding…"
"Michelle ....so sad to hear about your loss. Truly I know there are no words because on 11 jan this year my partner of 2.5 years died in my arms after having a seizure followed by cardiac arrest .The pain I know is so immense, and the void very…"
"DANG.. I think Sheri has disappeared.. I hope I didn't cause that by coming down on that old saying about the suicidal being selfish and all.. its just that I hate to hear that said.. it just reinforces the suicidal person's conviction…"
"I have an aunt who is in her late 70's and who just got married for the 5th time. 3 of her husbands have died. She told me that after her last husband of 25yrs passed that she thought she would never get married again. A year went by and…"
"It seems so natural to talk to Brandon.. I'm not trying to get him to do anything for me.. I forgot that the pastor didn't call it talking to the dead.. he called it praying to the dead.. I asked him if there is a difference.. and asked…"
"Strangely enough I think he has lost a child himself... maybe he hasn't been able to resolve his own grief issues.. It just smacked me hard about the 'self pity'... and also he told me I should join the group for 'depression and…"
"Anne j I know WHT u mean a man down the road from me who I bear has stop to see me more then who say they it was always .are and I so I rave know friends but I think I'm better off alone so I don't have to listen to people that…"
"Dolly that is awful and cruel. Brandon was there comforting you with the fragrance of the lillies. There are no demons, just narrow-minded fearful humans like the online pastor you talked to. Grief is in no way self-pity. I am so sorry and…"
"I kept smelling lilies off and on yesterday... I have been going into an online church for about a month... its new.. and the pastor of it emailed me to tell me I had to stop posting things I was saying about/to my son in the group and said I was…"
"I cried a lot today and really just remembering our conversations and all God its killing me..i know its never going to really go away but today it just stopped me from doing everything and everything."
"Gale, last night was a very hard night for me also. Every day is hard but seemed exceptional last night. I guess weekends are more difficult, thats when we would meet and catch up on life. It was what i looked forward to each week. Like you, i miss…"