I tried to send a short message and a request, but I don’t know if it actually got sent or not. I wanted to offer my condolences to you and your son.
I noticed that you are a person of faith. Would you care to…"
"Hi Cristal.Welcome to the hardest part of your life. This is the worst it will ever get, which is both bad and good at the same time. You're going to become a new woman after you make it through this journey.There are no short cuts. Take this…"
"I know all about the "I just can't."
It's not because you don't want to... you try and it's just not there, like turning on a light switch and the bulb doesn't work. You did all you could and knew how to, but it…"
"You had half your soul ripped out... basically. Of course you're going to struggle.
Most folks just don't get that because they are still fine. They have not been so deeply wounded and have nothing to compare your struggle to.
"I have a rollercoaster. Some days I am fine alone, others I simply need a wife to love on and make stuff for and ask her opinion. That's just how it is. I don't get a choice and folks who constantly tell me "get over it, it's…"
"I have to look forward or I just want to lay down and die. My son needs a dad. He needs a mom too but I can't find a woman who will step up and do that for him.
She died when he was 5 so he didn't know her well. He has not had a mom since…"
"Just got here. Widowed at age 28. It took 18 hours from healthy wife to no more wife. That was nearly 8 years ago. She wanted me to move on and I wanted the same for her if I went first... strange that we had the conversation mere months before her…"
"Some days you try, but you just can't. Whatever you needed just didn't work that day.
The first 4 years were rough and she didn't want me to be alone. Unfortunately, I am alone. Society shuns widowers. The most common question I get…"
I never thought that I would be a widow in my forties. My friends can't relate and feel the need to comment on everything, even if they have no experience with grief. I know they mean well but only we know what we are going though.See More
Rough life, lots of bad stuff happened. I made sure I did right by folks no matter what. Now I'm ready to move right along.
I learn things and do stuff. Things like EarthShip and No-Till Farming and Aquaponics and Rodin Coils and Home Construction and Orgonite and how to fix a bicycle for a kid or a truck for a dad. I'm a helpy helperton.
Nondenominational Christian. Ask if you are curious. Silence is something I hate.
About my Loss:
She died making love to me. Orgasm killed her (blew out her ascending aorta). She went out with a bang! She was 29. I celebrated with our 5 year old son what would have been her 30th birthday just 2 months later. I was 28. It crushed me. I would have died from my heart stopping if my son didn't need me. I had no support network because everyone was horrified and confused and ... chose not to be available. I grieved alone and was taken advantage of in the following years. I got better.
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"Hi All Guys
I was away for few days as I am blessed with a baby girl on 10 Aug 18. Both mother and baby doing fine.
I planned my baby only as my mother wanted to see her grand child but destiny had other plans. But I hope she has still blessed…"
"It's been almost two years for me. It doesn't hurt any less. Some days I push it away but then all of a sudden every bit of it hits like a ton of bricks. I did tell a few of my best friends and I mostly regret it. Now I feel it's just…"
"Awww- I’m sorry about that! It must make you feel really terrible that you can’t just take her home.
The same thing happened with my mom after her heart attack. She couldn’t just live by herself anymore. We had to empty her…"
"iv bean to day to sea her iv hadto liee to her wish i feal bad
wen can i go homee wen drs says so
why am hear coz dr says so i anserd it for abot 40 mins i did
evry tim i leabee i feal dranedd i do
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"Thank you bluebird. My kids have been a huge comfort for me. Making me laugh even when I don't want to and giving me someone to occupy my time and energy with. I am working my way through this slowly and they help…"
"Anxiety/panic is awful, I had it so bad after my mom passed I was walking with my legs shaking, it was awful I though I this how I have to live the rest of my life in a state anxiety/panic?
Just awful I understand what you are going through."
"The indifference is hard. I hate it when people ask me how Zim doing or how lifw is... I just want to scream at them “how do you think it is!” My boss constantly asks me and everytime I just respond with a “fine” or…"
"I wish that I could have handled the loss of my mother better than I have but I do believe that what I am experiencing is a testament to how much I loved my mom. To have gotten through this without scars would have been awkward as well. I would have…"
I found going back to work (due to needing to support my family) possibly saved me a little from falling to much into my grief.
It was also very good for me to be around normal adults, as i don't have much family near by, and…"
sorry to hear about your wife passing. i can only imaging and guess at what your going though.
After my wife passing last year, i had family and friends helping out
with me and the boys.
i feel that lots of men tend to bury/push…"
I'm sorry, it must be so difficult with the children. At the same time, they are also part of her, so in that way it's good. My husband died shortly before his 42nd birthday; I was 44. My life ended the moment his did.
"Thank you Nancy for the kind words. I'm sorry 06to hear about your husband. My wife's grandfather passed away 17 years ago due to cancer that progressed quickly too and I watched her struggle with the grief. I know that your experience is…"
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