I tried to send a short message and a request, but I don’t know if it actually got sent or not. I wanted to offer my condolences to you and your son.
I noticed that you are a person of faith. Would you care to…"
"Hi Cristal.Welcome to the hardest part of your life. This is the worst it will ever get, which is both bad and good at the same time. You're going to become a new woman after you make it through this journey.There are no short cuts. Take this…"
"I know all about the "I just can't."
It's not because you don't want to... you try and it's just not there, like turning on a light switch and the bulb doesn't work. You did all you could and knew how to, but it…"
"You had half your soul ripped out... basically. Of course you're going to struggle.
Most folks just don't get that because they are still fine. They have not been so deeply wounded and have nothing to compare your struggle to.
"I have a rollercoaster. Some days I am fine alone, others I simply need a wife to love on and make stuff for and ask her opinion. That's just how it is. I don't get a choice and folks who constantly tell me "get over it, it's…"
"I have to look forward or I just want to lay down and die. My son needs a dad. He needs a mom too but I can't find a woman who will step up and do that for him.
She died when he was 5 so he didn't know her well. He has not had a mom since…"
"Just got here. Widowed at age 28. It took 18 hours from healthy wife to no more wife. That was nearly 8 years ago. She wanted me to move on and I wanted the same for her if I went first... strange that we had the conversation mere months before her…"
"Some days you try, but you just can't. Whatever you needed just didn't work that day.
The first 4 years were rough and she didn't want me to be alone. Unfortunately, I am alone. Society shuns widowers. The most common question I get…"
Rough life, lots of bad stuff happened. I made sure I did right by folks no matter what. Now I'm ready to move right along.
I learn things and do stuff. What I will get up to at any given day is pretty much just up to prayer. I love passive income. One day I will find a way to make it grow.
Nondenominational Christian. Ask if you are curious. Silence is something I hate.
About my Loss:
She died making love to me. Orgasm killed her (blew out her ascending aorta). She went out with a bang! She was 29. I celebrated with our 5 year old son what would have been her 30th birthday just 2 months later. I was 28. It crushed me. I would have died from my heart stopping if my son didn't need me. I had no support network because everyone was horrified and confused and ... chose not to be available. I grieved alone and was taken advantage of in the following years. I got better.
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"I am finding it so hard to keep motivated. I have tons I need to do to keep afloat and try to honor the legacy of my husband and yet all I seem able to do is push myself, force myself.......constantly. Its the putting on the mask and…"
"When your ‘life force’ is taken away from you there is no will to go on. It will be 5 years for me soon and many people think my grief has subsided as I seem to be functioning better, but as I said earlier we just become more adept…"
"do not no wen dad died i loss my way for long tim u cud say i did im f i am'thn loss folerd evn my cat i had for 16 yrs in 2016 wish she got me thru few dark tims she did
thn i gon to spirtaslt churchh fond upliftmtn i di did…"
"Thank you for such a wonderful, in depth and reflective post. It sounds like your Mom really had the devotion and love she richly deserved from you. As you said. The Doctors could have done a lot more. It was if they didn't want involved unless…"
Big Deal, It's St. Patrick's Day. All is does to me is relieve my Husband's death. In 2013 he passed away 2 months after St. Patrick's Day. We did go out to dinner together put he was in so much pain we had…"
"Hello friends, I’m so grateful to read your honesty about this hell on earth, this unbearable grief that we have (almost) no choice but to bear. I’m sorry I don’t contribute more often. When I think of something to write, in my…"
"Have been reading comments from the past few days. Yes, grief is lonely. I'm so thankful for this group. Like Joe says, it's really difficult not having our better half here physically, just to appreciate…"
Yes, we all pretty much have found that grief is not a bump on the head. It is a ripping apart of a quantum soul. For me it has become an all encompassing desire to plead with the universe to take me. I do it as I have now…"
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"So sorry you’re going through such a grievous loss — my mother died recently as well, we were very close and I had been there helping her because she was having increasingly complex health problems over the last five years, so I feel…"
"That you all for your kind compassion. Just plain hell today as usual. Tears at times and don't know when or what will trigger them. The only time I venture out is my daily visit to the cemetery (closest I can be to Her…"
My heart ached for you when I read of your breakdown day. We feel your intense pain and heartache. Over time we become so adept at carrying our grief, stuffing it and hiding it. Yet so many times we become so overwhelmed by…"