I am the oldest child of divorced parents. I am married with 4 step children 1 cold and 5 grand children.
About my Loss:
My younger brother had cirrhosis and he did on August 7, 3017. He developed ARDS as a result of a blood transfusion while in the hospital. After 20 days on a vent in ICU we removed the vent and he lasted 3 hours before he suconbed to death. That was the hardest thing I have ever done...watching my brother struggle to breath and I couldn't help him. I felt so heartbroken, guilty, and relieved st the same time. His body was depleted and I knew there was no hope but I knew his wishes to not be on life support so I honored him by telling him I would watch over his daughters whom he was estranged, take care of his dog, and help him transition to heaven with grace and dignity. I am still not sleeping and I still feel guilty. I miss my brother so much. I am a total mess.
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