My name's Ashlee, I'm 21 and from BC Canada. I lost my beautiful mother on July 9th, 2011 to lung cancer and the complications that follow. For the first few months, it felt surreal. In fact, I felt that my mom was on vacation, and I was just "rooming" with my sister. She's also young, 20 years young. I live with my dad too, but he's a workaholic so he's away most of the time. My mom was a stay at home mom, whom I was extremely close to, but now I feel empty without her. I'm also a nurse on a medical floor. I help a lot of families going through grief, but most of them don't know my pain. Now here I am on this website writing my "About Me" in hopes that I can find someone to connect with, whom I can relate to.
About my Loss:
My mom was 42 when she was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer, with mets to liver, and adrenal gland. I remember everything from this day (June 3, 2011) like it was yesterday. My mom fought through 10 treatments of radiation, two chemotherapy and passed away unexpectedly 36 days later. It's the hardest thing I and my family have ever gone through. I miss her presence, her laugh, love, friendship, everything. I hate this.
Hi Ashlee, how are you doing? My name is Juliana, I really want to have a good friendship with you. I have something very very important I really want to discuss with you alone okay. Please my dear, I want you to write me back through this my email address okay: email@example.com
I have read a little about the loss of your mom from your profile, but I was wondering if you would be interested in sharing a little more of your story with me. I am part of a research team at Saint Louis University that is looking at end of life decision making and family communication. If you are interested in taking part in an interview, please let me know.
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