In 2017 I lost my husband of 11 years to cardiac arrest. this happened unexpectedly while talking in the bathroom to our 8 year old son. my son is know 10 he has handle his passing better than me. still until this day I cry thinking about him I even moved on thinking I can rekindle my marriage being with another man. this is hard for me to accept I had a amazing husband who accepted my faults. I finally found a man who I can say honestly love, protected, and did everything for me. life won’t never be the same nobody understand the pain I endure everyday just thinking about him, and watching our son grow up without him. never in a million years did I think I will become a widow at 35 years old. a big piece of my life was taken from me I cry everyday I feel guilty moving on so fast being I was afraid to be alone. not one day goes bye without me thinking about him I know he is not comfortable back in my mind I be thinking he going to walk through the door. I feel like I’m about to lose my mind he was my best friend 😢
Are You a Service Provider? If Yes, please tell us about your service.
You need to be a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community to add comments!
"Part 2Linda, yes and yes, I "laugh on the outside and cry on the inside". And the laugh (or just plain conversation) is just part of how I cope for when I have to be around others. But it means nothing. It’s like we…"
"Part 1 Bless you and thanks to each one of you who keep writing about how you feel and how you cope. I always feel support knowing I am not alone. What I don't get (and not that any one of us can give it) is the answer to how I can…"
"It's a Catch 22, impossible to solve. I accept Her body isn't alive anymore, but I HAVE TO HAVE HER BODY ALIVE AND STILL WITH ME and I want that to be forever. I know that's impossible, but I STILL HAVE TO HAVE IT!!! …"
"Connie I'm sorry but just know your words do stay in my head.
Keven's mom...I'm so sorry that phone came. There's nothing I can say or do to make this easier on you. Just know we know exactly how you feel. Your…"
As all of you have stated, I too fake my happiness. I laugh on the outside and am crying for him on the inside. I ache so bad that my Julian is not in my life. I just don't understand why God won't take me. Until he does, I…"
"Morgan. I wish I had answers but I am in the very same place. Lost, fake and hollow. I feel worse than I did a year ago I think because I thought I would feel better and don't. Empty and apathetic. I'm tired all the…"
I don't know why this has happened to us, our soulmates being torn from us, but it fucking sucks. Have you considered not acting happy and normal, since that isn't how you feel? Especially if acting that way isn't helping…"
"Please somebody, tell me how I can continue to do this. I am so depressed. I get up every day and pretend. It's what is making me so depressed. It looks like I am functioning so normally. Now that I have learned…"
"Hi Danny. Surviving is art which we all need to practice. Today I met a friend whose father is witnessing the similar illness as my mother i.e. late stage cancer. He is also going through the same emotional turmoil as I went in 2018. After this…"